#literally went down the 'students watch mentors die a hero's death and will martyr themselves at the first opportunity oops'

[beatrice-babe]

coming back to a fic idea from literally years ago and writing absolutely insane emotional dialogue, and it got me thinking

coming back to this fic years later means that there are things I am writing into it I would not have done years ago. things I would not have realized in myself years ago. even if I had put it in, it would have been an accident. coming back to it today, with a couple years of introspection and *~craft~* (writing hundreds of words more of fanfic), I can do the thing on purpose. instead of glancing off my point, i can pin it like a bug to a display and say "this right here, this is what we are doing and it is on purpose"

there's just something really cool about looking at my art today and realizing that it 100% is telling on me as a person in some way, and just being okay with that

#bb writes #aka 'my feelings about the mortality rates in the heroics industry two years ago were not yet fully formed #now when I write my My Hero Academia with a Mamma Mia! AU twist #I can really make sure to slam the 'have you thought about your identity and lifespan as a hero today' button with my full chest' #literally went down the 'students watch mentors die a hero's death and will martyr themselves at the first opportunity oops' #and a couple years ago I would have been unsure about that. uncertain. #now i get two words into a speech about it and go 'oh THIS is what we're doing?? in my silly little comedy piece???? yeah alright. fuck it. #living my life #yes I DO HAVE A COMPLICATED RELATIONSHIP WITH DEATH THANK YOU FOR ASKING