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A Hot Summer Day

Authors Note: So its been awhile since i put some writing on here, life has been weird for me and I've been uninspired. so this story is probably trash, but it was a fun practice round, so i hope you guys enjoy it. hope to be posting more stories now. Also if you catch a typo or bad grammar, feel free to say something. ill fix it.

The sun was bearing down hard that day, making even the pool hard to be out in. I was no stranger to heat waves, i lived in San Antonio for a large portion of my 20 years, but something about today felt like a miniature hell. But there was one benefit of all this, my girlfriends reaction. She was a gorgeous redhead from Vegas, with gorgeous brown eyes and soft, tan skin. Depending on the heat, she tended to take her clothes off to help, but today, as we hung out near my pool, she was totally naked.

She has some small but perky tits, a big bubble butt that i just wanted to squeeze like clay, and her pussy was deliciously puffy. I layed back in the pool, trying to relax but i couldn't keep my eyes off her which wasn’t helping me. A lustful heat was rolling over me, making me feel even hotter and really thirsty. She tipped her sunglasses down to look at me gave her usual crooked grin. “How hard ya? Like a steel beam, or like a really thick branch?” I couldn't help but twitch as she mentioned it, a reminder of my need.

“Why don't you come over here and find out?” She scoffed and sat back on her chair under a umbrella. “Hell no, your country ass might be able to take it, but as soon as the air starts working im going back inside.” I sighed. I had always been a country kid, i even had the general look. Big, lots of muscle from hard work, strong rough hands, the tan, the whole works. Add my hay colored hair and my dark eyes, not even i could argue it. But i still hated this heat, being from the country didn't fix that.

“Oh come on. Saying i like the heat because im from the country is like saying you like stripping because you lived right next to a strip club.” She laughed at that. “Hell no! You had to deal with heat even if you do hate it, even when i was 12 i ogled those sluts and loved it.” I sighed. “Come on babe, if your gonna be all naked and teasing at least help me out.” I couldn't help but plead. She looked at me curiously, a sorta sly look on her face. “Maybe… i might. Come closer to me, now.” I obeyed and got closer to the edge, closer to her and her amazing body.

She put her foot in my face. “Do you like the color?” Her nails were a soft red, and i nodded. I ran my lips along the top of her foot, and began to kiss and lick her soft feet. “Good boy. Knowing what i want, when i want it.” I began sucking on one of her toes wich made her moan a little. Normally i wasn't into this kinda thing, it did more for her then me, but i just felt so needy that even this was arousing me even more. “Damn, has your brain melted from the heat or is my good boy just that desperate to get off?” I answered with a lick and a harder suck, she simply giggled.

“This please you Rebecca?” She nodded. She hated it when people shortened her name, she claimed her full name was one for a queen. “Mmmm god your tongue is talented. Your ma teach you how to please women?” I glared at her, the obvious ‘Redneck = incest’ not too appreciated. “Your mother teach you how to be a slut?” she growled at my cheeky grin.

“Please, im a sex goddess and you know it.” I rolled my eyes but kept licking and sucking on her soft toes. “.... Hey Dillian?” I looked up at her, seeing how red her cheeks were getting. “Yes?” a cat like smile came over her lips, though her blush made it look a little sheepish. “I know we've talked about this, but does it all bother you that i'm… you know…?” i answered by moving up and giving her a hickey on her thigh, wich makes her moan and her pussy glisten.

“That your such a pervert, a bonafide slut?” She laughed. “I know you don't mind that, since you love taking advantage of it so muCH!” i gave her another hickey, this time on the other thigh, wich made her back arch and her pussy drool. “That you love it when i bite you? I definitely don't mind that.” I bit down a little harder, getting closer to her heated crotch. “Come on Re-becc-a. Say it.” She loves it when i put the extra emphasis on her name.

“Fuck, Dillian, your distracting me sto- OH G-GOD!” I was ever so lightly nibbling on her clit now, rubbing her thick thighs the entire time. She was drooling from both her gorgeous pussy and her pretty mouth. I began to lap and suck and more nibbles, making her writhe in pleasure. “D-d-dillia-n, oh f-fck your drving me razy! MWORE!”

I chuckled “Not till you say it. What should bother me babe?” I know i'm torturing Rebecca but i can't help it, her moans and twitches were so gorgeous and fun to watch. “Y-you fucking DICK! Y-you yo-you fucking slut!” I began to lick too, giving her a full body trembles. “F-uck...i… need to KNoW if… you like how… if you hate how… i tease other… guys…THERE I FUCKING SAID IT!” She was trying not to completely break, it was rather cute. But she was serious, so id better answer her.

I get up on the chair and lift her up and put her down near my lap, near my cock. “Just relax babe. Ill answer your question, but let me give your reward.” she growled. “When did you get all dominant?” Instead of answering her, i plunged her down on my extremely hard and erect cock. Her face bulged out a little in a very sexy way, as if her mind had just exploded and she couldn't perceive how horny it made her.

And one of the most adorable things she does when i'm dominant, wich admitally is not often, when she just kinda utters softly in disbelief. “Feels… so… brain no… of… fuuuck!” i couldn't help but chuckle as i forced her up and down my cock like a toy, a super hot, tight, trembling, drooling toy that was responding my every action.

“Feel good princess?” She clenched hard at me calling her ‘princess’ and she moaned out loud. “FUCK ME MOOOOOOOORE! PLEASSSS!” i think it just hit it her how hard i was fucking her. I began to slam her down harder and harder, and i felt myself throb in her. It feels incredible to do this to her, to just pleasure her like this, to drive her beyond crazy.

“You want more huh?” My fingers began to twist her nipples the way she liked and i suckled collar bone, all causing her to break into a ear destroying screech and her eyes to roll back. She quickly came over me, right as i exploded myself, not being able to handle how wonderful her clenching pussy felt.

I pulled her into my body, us both panting and sweating, no longer caring about the heat. I let my hands slowly go over her body, feeling each tremble along her skin. “Damn princess, i made you lose your mind for a second there.” She gasped, feeling my finger trace her pussy slowly. “Fuck… god i love it when your riled up. You fuck me so good.” She responded, smiling happily.

“Hey babe?” She looked up at me, snuggling against my chest. “Don't worry about the whole teasing thing. I know your mine, and mine alone. I trust you.” She blushed but smiled. “Only yours… speaking of, fuck me again?” I give her a cheeky smile.

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classicjdiesandgoestohell · 2 years

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something that has been bothering me sooo much lately is how dysphoric i feel around nick literally terrible i haven't felt this dysphoric in yeaaaarrrrrssssss. theres some post on my instagram from december about having fucking dysphoria dreams do u realize how ridiculous that is???? Literally have dreams for weeks on end about dysphoria??????? crazy, especially bc dreams are always super relevant for me. they are not abstract at all, they are straight up what is happening and what ive been feeling lately.

june does not make this feel any better at all way worse i feel so bad. my girlfriend bought me a binder for christmas but i mostly just wore it at the house (idk why, its not like i Don't want to be flat when i leave the house, i just always seemed to forget when i needed to leave) to feel better at myself. (actually as i type this i realize it's because s lot of my dysphoria is more, self inflicted than other ppl percieving me. I have the worst dissociation ever I don't process that when I leave the house, there is a physical body that people are perceiving so i don't particularly care what i look like). ANYWAYS long story short i started wearing my binder to school bc i want to make sure that i can handle wearing it for the full 8-10 hours, instead of taking it off after a few. I have also been observing which shirts i look the flattest in so that i can wear those ones to see him. yea. obviously they're all sweaters/heavier clothes which won't work well with the heat but never! In my life! Have I let heat stopped me from wearing clothes!

i also wanted to try a new hair dye colour bc ive had blonde & pink for over a year now )i still love it, don't get me wrong i am just curious what other colours id like) but like i am scared it'll suck and i won't be able to get my hair back to something good by the time i see him. if i dyed it within the next week it'd Maybe be faded enough to redye it b4 the trip??? But I don't know how fast green fades compared to the pink i always do. Way slower im pretty sure.

i also really want to Cut my hair and get a shorter haircut but again i am so scared it'll look bad. ivr had the same length for also over a year and i like it, it's safe. but this post is DYSPHORIA THEMED i think it's too ambiguous. i think my face is too feminine for it to ever look male on me, even if it could for other people. i want to go shorter but if it grows out badly im ending it!!!!!!! it'd be better to do it now (i was planning to cut my hair Tonight) but if i cut it badly, ill have 1-2 more weeks left of school w a terrible haircut.....but if i cut it after that, it might not be able to grow out enough to look ok b4 nick? UGH I don't know bro idk what my final decision will be. i need to make it fucking fast though. maybe ill have my sister help me make the decision & cut it so that it'll be better. the issue is I have very very straight hair so i hate shorter hair styles bc if i don't brush it or if i go more than 3 days w/o showering, it gets so flat i look so fucking bad

Ohghhhhhhh this reminds me i have terrible eating disorder related hair loss. I started recovery mid-march, and my friend said it took him about 3 months for his hair to start being healthy & grow back again and that's around the time i see nick. but it could take longer for me. that's another reason i don't want to cut my hair, because j did used to have shorter hair and it looked fine. It was never flat or anything even w/o brushing, but now i have much less hair on my head. and it is not the healthiest hair.. so im scared how it'd look shorter

I'm talking a lot about cutting & dyeing it when most likely I'd just end up keeping the same haircut anyways!

yea just o haven't had a cis person in my life in YEARS all my friends either came out ss trans or they got cut off for other reasons so there is just none except like...my dad but he does not count. Honorary lgbt. especially a cis person i am dating....? It feels so bad literally so much anxiety all the time i already hate talking caus my voice so in person i wonder how often i will want to just opt out of the situation and not exist. god i hate it bc i am soo excited for everything else i want to be there so badly but i just hate that i must have a physical form and he has to see it. i haven't really been dysphoric for a long time (bc, no cis people in my life, got more comfortable in myself, came out irl) but it just. ugh. Yeah. i feel so guilty for kind of dreading that part of seeing him because i feel like i Should be totally excited but i am also so anxious. And also that's the whole point? is to see him and for him to see me. and know that i have a body i am real i have a face and i amna whole person and he is also. So it's like oh you're planning this whole elaborate thing only to dread likr...the main part of it. It'll probably be fine tho, i find i am much less aware of things in the moment and i won't even notice especially if i am having a good time. maybe the worry will be there when im trying to sleep, or in awkward spaces where i am suddenly aware of myself and my body and where i am. i love him and trust him tho so it'll be ok.

That is my post thank you for posting!

#lucky strike #whew!#purgatory

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