#me writing the alice portion: move i'm gay and have a shopping cart of emotions

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If ya don't mind, please go into detail into what's fun about writing all of your characters! (sorry, I'm an interested dork ^^;)

OKAY SO so this a bit more personal and maybe a bit “pat myself on the back” but it’s the truth so here we are.

Francine: She’s kind of me. More so, she’s my capability of expressing emotion within my own realm of experience and understanding. She’s both a reflection of how I feel about things and a flexibility of the extent to which I understand feelings and decisions. She makes me walk a mile without doing so in another pair of shoes. Honestly…writing her is an exercise in looking at how others might love and care for me. It’s done a lot for my self esteem. Of course she’s her own character too, but…I never have to wonder very hard about who she is and what she would do. It’s very comforting.

Sammy: I don’t think I can say I’m the only person for sure/anymore, but I feel the way I approached writing him was unique at the time I began doing it, in the very least within my own horizons of the fandom. To find empathy in his position, especially in his religiosity, whereas I think (in general, not just with him), it’s kind of hard to find representation of religious people who aren’t comedic relief in their faith or villains because of their religion (I know that it’s pretty easily argued the game did this, yeah.) He’s cathartic in that sense, too, because when I began writing him I was scared to confront my own dislike of my experience of religion as my parents had me know it, but as he made peace with what is and is not right about his faith, I kind of had to as well. Also in that he didn’t have to necessarily let it go to learn how to be happier.Also feelings of conflict about sacrificing people…is a very niche but intense interest for me in characters lmao. I just think he’s extremely interesting to me because his canon character had a lot of potential. It’s a delightful challenge to try to make him a relatable person. It’s also rivaled by how fun it is to think about the journey made in trying to show him kindness.

Alice: Okay so first statement is that I’m very very not straight so scary monster lady good.

Second is that in canon I had a very distinct vision for how she was as a person and how she was motivated, and when canon kind of went with another thing, I went “WELL OKAY I STILL HAVE THE ONE I MADE SO I’M GONNA JUST FOCUS ON THAT” I can and have literally thought about her for hours in just…her bitterness, her fractured sense of self in SO many ways, what justifications she could possibly have for what she ends up doing. She’s horrible, and she’s hurt, and she can only count on herself; it’s all so cyclacle and being challenged in it sends her spiraling, and the mess it leaves behind is just…so satisfying to see her suffer in. To see her hold shreds of glass in her hands and piecing a mirror out of it until she’s almost what she wants to see in her reflection. God I love her.

Norman / the projectionist: I’m gonna be the first to say he needs to be adapted a bit differently when I write this story as original, but the appeal to when I wrote him in the fic is that godDAMMIT I love characters that make you wonder what their state of being and mind is. Is he entirely conscious? Is he entirely a creature of the now? Does he pace the halls because he only knows to react to the immediate, or does he actively choose to see nothing else? I love a good mystery, and honestly that’s not one I ever answered for myself.

Henry: Writing him and Francine as parallels…super good. Writing him as a young gay dad with hopes and dreams and a person who shares sensitivities and fears of being let down that I have, and making the simple but very symbolic act of him running away at the first major sign of instability cause problems for everyone he left behind? It’s very satisfying. He’s a symbol, too, for everything that was supposed to be right, where everything went wrong. It wasn’t his fault, of course, but other characters finding a person to blame gives them something to have to learn to overcome in order to be happy. Henry had to figure that out about Joey, after all.

Joey: Everything. His personality. How easy it is to visualize and write his physical reactions down to the way his eyes twitch and his wrist twirls. The depth of his love and entitlement and insecurity and how there’s no distinction between any of the shit that makes him great and that makes him so fucked up. 

And of course there’s the whole thing about him lying under the reader’s nose, hopefully in ways they don’t even expect.

If I don’t stop myself from talking about him at this point I never will so there you go.

The Ink Demon: Honestly everything with Norman except the added bonus of knowing exactly what that mfer is so I can write a twist ending about it. 

Boris, as a bonus: I’m in the minority of not caring terribly much for him as a canon character so I used him as a plot device only and only kind of feel mean about it so I might go to hell. Look at his face. He’s so cute and I done did him dirty.

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