#misogynistic laws were very much in place but it was not a proper patriarchy either? so there's just this nuance that is pretty wild to me

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Can't come over today I'm busy psychoanalyzing societies that don't actually exist, yeah tomorrow too, sorry

#verdict #I'm just [thinks about it all/exo] #I do not in particular or at all want to go back to that life but I just #dear god. thinking of it all. having thoughts about it #I'm rediscovering a fictional culture that isn't even written anywhere #which you may think 'isn't that just having ocs' but no it isn't our world building skills are absolutely abysmal #it's just that the author of my source really just kinda. didn't explore my culture all that much #other than basing it off the roman empire (but also just kind of. both republic and empire and then also with a lot of influences that were #definitely medieval italian so it's a whole mess yk? #so now I've had the fun of going 'hey some of my memories don't match up with roman culture as we know it what was up with that' #and it's just all really interesting #like we had different pronouns we used to show different relations to people and to show status #and nonbinary/neutral genders were recognized so there were neutral forms of these generally #gender as a whole and gender roles were also very interesting since it was in this weird limbo where #misogynistic laws were very much in place but it was not a proper patriarchy either? so there's just this nuance that is pretty wild to me #when I compare it to stuff I'm familiar with in this world #also the most common informal word for parent was the pronouns children usually use for their parents (also some of their first words) #combined and it was a whole concept yk? like oh this is my parent this is who my first words were for and that was just really sweet to me #there's also a lot of fucked up shit probably obviously because its inspiration is one of the messiest and shittiest empires ever so I'm #also thinking about all of that and experiencing the agony etc #there's just so much #and it feels so bizarre that it's only real now inside of our memories