#no people doesn't do anything wrong bu engaging with canon the way they find enjoyable

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#another thing that drives me crazy us that some parts of fandom made ut hard for ne to enjoy things I like #for example when series 2 only came out I was invested into all edits with sad songs #about how Aziraphale loves angel!Crowley and demon!Crowley suffers #and than you came into tegs and apparently some people will argue that it's canon and not angsty au #*tags #and now it leaves bad taste in my mouth #or like. brainwashed Aziraphale ir Aziraphale that scared and under treat can be tasty concepts #while it's treated as 'what if' and not as 'it's clearly canon and we will build all our understanding of his character on it' #or Aziraphale's black and white thinking or him still believing that angels are (should be) inherently good and heavens are better than hel #I think it is canon! it did played it's part in final fifteen! but I can't say it because I think it's neutral or even lovable part of #Aziraphale as character (sure real life person would be insufferable with thanking like this. but also I would kill someone real who drives #like Crowley! who cares!) and you can't put it in tags without treating this either as flaw he will and *should* overcome #or proof of him being bad/stupid/abusive #like I don't care!! I want to say 'look at him my baby thinks he's the smartest and most holy being in this room' and boop his little nose #I can't even enjoy angsty headcanons about Crowley being miserable without Aziraphale #because one they treat this as being Aziraphale's fault and two it's again treated as canon #like I can take only so much fucs where Crowley lays face down into pool of his tears thinking that he's the poores lost puppy ever being #while not giving two fucks about Aziraphale being in danger him own being asshole to him in final fifteen and oh yes SECOND COMING AROUND #anyway yes I'm a weak link and should be eliminated yes yes #yrs I block and try to not engage and after some weeks I tentatively ready to enjoy *some* of this things again #but yes I still want to complain!! #no people doesn't do anything wrong bu engaging with canon the way they find enjoyable #I can't stress enough that it's a me problem #but of course my hatred turned onto imaginary enemy