#since i got health insurance last year i've been diagnosed with other genetic diseases that i should prob warn him about anyways... yikes

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got my sleep study results. no diagnosis yet, got a second sleep study and an MSLT scheduled for july. the only thing i'm interested in right now is that the sleep study found i fall asleep within 3 minutes on average????? like holy shit that is SO fast. i never could relate to people saying they count sheep or imagine an empty white room to induce sleep, but i thought i simply fell asleep easily, not that it was basically instantly compared to normal people. threeeeee minute average. dude i close my eyes and i'm checking OUTTTT of consciousness. my eyes shut and i'm unconscious faster than a twister heading for an elementary school. omg. i guess i never realized because it's not like i lie awake WAITING to fall asleep. i start dreaming within a few seconds of closing my eyes but before i'm asleep so i get absolutely zero time to sit there and think "yep i'm still awake huh" lol

#my REM sleep is also “very light” which explains why i've been SUCHHH a light sleeper my entire life #bruh when i was growing up someone could open a door on the other side of the house and it'd wake me up 😭 #someone could be walking normally in the kitchen or start a shower and my stupid ass body would wake up because of it #i've always had a weird amount of guilt/shame and maybe feeling like a faker about telling people i live with to PLEASE be quieter at night #cuz it's not MY fault i sleep so lightly yet i always felt as if it was. now i got a sleep study to prove that i'm not making it up #now if i get a narcolepsy diagnosis in a few months the first thing i'm doing is calling my brother and saying #“all those times you took a shower when i was asleep you were tormenting me because of my disability :///” lmao #since i got health insurance last year i've been diagnosed with other genetic diseases that i should prob warn him about anyways... yikes #doesn't seem like he has any of them but if i have them then he is for sure carrying the genes and i know he wants kids... #bluh