#smh yk what i wish i had a partner like gaia too smh where's my rinoa 😭

[noxtivagus]

REMEMBER that one cutscene in shadowbringers w. ykyk those two blondes 🥹

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxiv. ] #impulsively watching an ffxiv cutscene rn before i work on some stuff & immediately i feel rather better i love this game so much :< #THE WARRIORS OF LIGHT OF THE FIRST :c GODDAMN HEROES IN FFXIV I LOVE THE WAY THEY DO IT SO MUCH AND HOW IT HURTS #also lamitt & ardbert i hate that so much ffxiv you're so mean. & then w ardbert.... sacrifice.... n then the end of shb fuck. #hope. #why does ffxiv make me cry so easily i'm #I GOT AN AD WHEN TOMORROW AND TOMORROW REPRISE STARTED PLAYING IN THE OST SMH #last year i cried so much when i first went through the cutscene bcs. her words n her struggles were #i'm crying i missed playing ffxiv ahh i remember the words i wrote to myself the first i played through this. i remember crying too #burdens. ryne w her regrets n. the help of others.... so many times close to giving up but she made it w them #'yet here you stand resolved. now....tell me your hearts desire' :< this cutscene is so precious to me #yk i cried too the first i listened this ost. alphinaud. eulmore. his character development is smth i admire so much!!!! i'm so proud!!!! #ffxiv w shb means so much to me :< stuff w shadows and light and remembrance and hfkajfklsdf all the themes ! #'we stand now at the crossroads. a decision must be made' reminds me of that one line in to the edge #oh my god i aspire to be like. minfilia. the wol too :< 'tis only natural to be afraid. to hesitate' #SHES GONE THROUGH HER OWN SUFFERING TOO N YET. look here w her soft smile n comforting words she's so beautiful #i'm so proud of ryne she's grown to be her own person n have her own purpose n love herself n #smh yk what i wish i had a partner like gaia too smh where's my rinoa 😭 #'i cant help but believe' ryne you're making me cry i love the way she delivered that line #'but i want to do more' & 'make a difference' & 'i want to help them like they helped me and even maybe inspire others to do the same' #oh she's just like me fr. but she shines so brightly like the sun she's so loved i cldn't compare at all but.... SOB WAIT #only way forward & 'since all of our heroes are gone we'll just have to make heroes of ourselves'. what a wonderful dream. hope.... #i can't do this i'm crying wait 'if ever you should falter remember this: no one however powerful is immune to the whisperings of doubt and #despair. do not give in to them but do not deny them either. look instead to the light within that you may continue to serve #as a beacon to others' :< minfilia fuck you 'but not even the most valiant heroes can stand alone' ARDBERT fuck you #'only together may you change the fate of two worlds' sigh n then the ending of shb!!!! & after this cutscene w thancred n urianger 🥺 #i feel a bit better again :< i can always allow myself to be vulnerable when it comes to fiction. i shld indulge myself more in this #to.. distract myself. live vicariously through fiction. sigh. no this'll just be my coping mechanism so i can perform well enough irl #& then i'll let myself free when it comes to my passions like this yeah i'll cope i'll distract myself on my own c: stop thinkinghfkldk </3