#testing a day early just prolongs the agony of the 'waiting for your period to start' period and tips you from hopeful into despairing

[whentherewerebicycles]

ok just had my dr appt and am feeling a lot better.

we’re going to increase my dosage of the meds + do a diagnostic test on friday to see if my fallopian tubes are blocked (and i guess the test itself can improve conception rates after because of the type of dye they use?). the cost of the test is within the range i felt i could afford so that’s good too. most importantly she was really reassuring about the “if you have 3 failed cycles IUI won’t work for you” advice that is allllll over the internet. her take is that the research focuses mostly on heterosexual couples who likely had difficulties conceiving naturally for a year or more before seeking fertility care... meaning they’ve typically gone through 15-16 unsuccessful cycles (12 of trying to conceive naturally + 3-4 with IUI). in that case there’s likely some other reason things aren’t working and so it makes sense, timing wise and financially, to move on to the highest-tech option (ie IVF). but for single women and/or lesbians who are trying to conceive, those 3-4 IUI cycles are their first and only attempts. and if the medical history looks good and the person is responding well to the medication, then it might just be a timing and luck thing. so she says if everything looks good on the test we’re doing friday, she recommends that i try six cycles before we reassess. and if i can balance the costs and don’t want to do IVF, she says there’s no reason why i couldn’t follow the regular guidance for couples trying non-medicated cycles ie a full year of trying (although at that point i might decide the financial / emotional cost isn’t worth it). 

#iui tag #that weekend of wallowing was uhh little bit rough on me but #i feel better and ready to keep moving #applied for a second job for the summer/fall that would help offset the cost #and if i don't hear about that one i might reach out to my old bosses to see if they'd take me back on #i think if i can work out the money stuff it'll just alleviate a lot of the stress around each individual try #like i think a lot of my panic is just watching my savings dwindle so fast #right as i am preparing to take a very sizeable pay cut #the pay cut is 100000% worth it for my sanity lol but it does put pressure on other areas of my life #blah blah okay #i also think i learned a valuable lesson from this last time which is: don't test a day early and in fact consider testing a day late #testing a day early just prolongs the agony of the 'waiting for your period to start' period and tips you from hopeful into despairing #like 24 hours earlier than you need to be there #SO yeah. #idk anyway hopefully the test goes well and i can do this cycle #and if not i will have more info on friday and can make more decisions then