#thats not what you said last night

[lesbiangiratina]

Genuinely why do people seem to feel so threatened by the concept of aromanticism

#people are still annoying about asexuality but its kind of died down to like #borderline regurgitating lol cringe special snowflake type shit #you sound like a south park character and you should be put down. but anyway #on the other hand people act like aromantics are like. fucking evil. or something #similar attitudes towards poly people. #how can you like. differ from the norm yourself but not be able to wrap your head around people differing from the norm in other ways #maybe its not an inability just an unwillingness. like. just sucking as a person. lol #sorryyyyy this is what i got mad about last night #a post calling out lesbophobia in a comment. by someone who was aromantic #the replies were sooooooooooo fucking tunnel visioned on the commenter being aromantic #sorry thats fucking insane to me as an arospec lesbian like. being aromantic wasnt the root of it? #i think maybe not being a lesbian is what leads to people being lesbophobic?? #AGAIN idgaf about the post itself the op themself said the person being aromantic was irrelevant . people were just being insane about it #the kat goes meow

[dimitrscu]

i love spending hours writing only to read it back the next day, cringe, and then delete the whole thing

#this is what i call progress #coming to terms with how awful i am then erasing it from existence before it gets worse #made the terrible mistake last night reading some very opinionated persons comments on the way ppl write and well #they were trying to make it sound like helpful criticism but tbh it only sounded l like hate #kind of like ‘omg ppl who do ‘X’ are just so bad’ #anyway a lot of what they said ended up being incredibly discouraging #like if you don’t write like this then you’re bad kind of thing #the mental torture i put myself through i swear #for years i have wanted nothing more than to actually do something meaningful with myself #even if that means writing or whatever #cause god knows i’ll never be able to draw #but i will never get over this hurdle it seems #i am only ranting so pls ignore #i'm having one of Those days today #just need to get over myself thats all

[knaveofmogadore]

You ever have a customer with a legitimate problem but they're such an asshole that they extinguish the embers of empathy within you with their insolence?

#messages from knave #her name is [redacted] and I've dropped from being her champion to wishing she'd lose internet #in about 4 hours #i felt. SO BAD. for this woman last night. only for her to call and scream at me #when the office phone turned on this morning #she's like 'the weather shouldn't have effected anything' when it was raining half this week #this same woman blew her top that people were late when a fucking tree was blocking the road #i tried so hard to keep feeling bad for her cause we (my boss) genuinely screwed up at her house #but she's made it extremely difficult to keep being nice to her because she's begun inventing problems #like for example #i say 'the electrician is gonna be there between 9 and 10am' #she says 'youre disorganized and confused because he said he cant be here at 9. why are you terrible at your job' #i send her a SCREENSHOT where the electrician says he's going to be there around 9:30 #she says 'thats not 9am' motherfucker that isnt what i said. He gave a timeframe of 930ish to 10am and that is what i told you. #between 9 and 10 #lord in heaven #i dont know why she hired us again she hates one of our techs enough to remember him by name and ask he not be sent #she's never said a nice word and threatens to sue us constantly like WHY DO YOU WANT US TO WORK FOR YOU IF YOU HATE US #YOU'RE PAYING. GO ELSEWHERE #and i tell her last night 'just so you know we're not done #'we have to come back #and what does she do but fucking call me at 8am yelling about why shit isn't done. ma'am. i told u it wasn't finished #im going to lose my mind #can't even make her my boss's problem because he threw a temper tantrum at the implication something was his fault #and fumbled their text chain so gloriously last night that he wont even share what he said to make her want to sue him specifically #I don't even WANT to know what he said because it'd give me an ulcer thinking about it #i need another job before this one gets sued into the ground #also im sick because my partner works retail and thats about as bad as having a kid in daycare

[girlcrushau]

#me? about to use tumblr as a diary again? in 2024? unfortunately:/ #but here have a waterfall i saw on a hike last week as payment #i am sO tired and exhausted emotionally after dating #there's this guy that i fr thought was going to last and be around for a long time. we spent like every moment together that we could for 2 #months straight and if we werent physicaly together we were texting or calling or on ft . just every part of our day had the other in it #not once did i ever feel unwanted undesired or uncared for. not once did i feel that i wasnt sure of his intentions. i felt safer with him #in those 2 months than i ever did with any one else i could think to compare to. #until one day he just didnt think it important to communicate any more. after 3 days of nearly nothing .. hardly any talking . i asked if #he was ok if we were ok. what was going on in his head. he said some ive just been with my buddies and family and havent been on my phone #and just. immediately thats heartbreak yanno. thats :// thats what they say when theres a new girl. but there'd never been a reason to think #there was another girl so i was like ok we're gonna trust bc this dude has been So good in every way. so i said imy but i understand. enjoy #your time with your buddies and with your fam -- i cant wait to hear about it (and hold you) #and i havent heard from him in the 3 weeks since. just randomly #so last night #i send the dreaded 'i miss you' text. #i dont expect to hear back and i accept the hurt that will come with that and the confusion that i've felt settles deeper into my heart #until this afternoon i hop on ig and see a hard launch that was posted an hour after my text was sent #that shit kinda hurt different. but also sent me into a bit of a delirious state where all i could do is laugh bc are you for fucking real #did she see my message? i know it. bc i know him and i know that he wouldnt hide anything from the person he's giving his heart #and his softness to. i can almost imagine how he showed her and promised her theres nothing to worry about #and there really isnt anything to worry about because he genuinely is the type to give his all to the relationship he's in #which feels silly to say after what happened w us. like no there wasnt a title ever #it sucks to call it a situationship because a month ago we were laughing in bed together about how we could never bc we were all in. #just the timing of the hard launch makes me giggle. did my text push them to have a conversation about what they are. was she really the #reason that he went away on me. #im trying not to blame myself . trying not to think about the phone calls i didnt answer. about what i could have done differently. trying #not to think about where we would be if i didnt let my anxieties hold me back. if i wasnt scared about what he'd think of the parts of me #that i keep hidden just a little bit longer than the rest. #and at the same time im trying not to put him on a pedestal. but that pedestal is just where i wholeheartedly believe he belongs #he set the bar for me. he set the standard. i was never too much. i was never too little. he made me feel perfect just as i am

[dhwty-writes]

New uni term started and the best thing is still the one guy I met on like the first day who only calls me dude and bro

#i am misgendered like 10 times a day but at least the one guys got it #it still fills me with so much joy #i met him during a first term party and complimented him on his (then pink) hair and told him how i wanted to dye mine again #when he suggested pink as well i went like 'eh when you look like me people will make wrong assumptions ablut your gender in that case' #before i had realised what i had said #got very embarassed about that bc at that point i hadnt really though about being out at uni #anyways from that night onward he referred to me as a woman once #and immediately went 'wait thats not right. are you a guy? are you a girl? we never really talked about this' #to which i replied 'yes' #anyways i was really worried bc i had no contact to all the people ive met last term for the entire break #completely unwarranted #theyre still all extremely cool #if anything i feel more integrated this term bc i have more classes with people i know #fabi's foolishness

[munamania]

btw just in case i seem callous abt the whole dating situation i was just being rather swoony over (god forbid i try to romanticize this bleak ass life) i want to bring up that this person made me carry a heavy fuckin camera case which. did not care to do that. and then sat while i tried to figure out how the fuck to put the rig and everything together and like. once again did not care to be fucking around with it that was honestly just soo irritating. like they were trying to just have one little moment of feeling better abt themselves lmao maybe im being evil idk and then also they brought up their ex for the zillionth time bc apparently all of their hobbies are tied up w her. shocker. anyway i think they think they can fix me

#and also now that several of the dykes have discussed i do think it's weird that they so avoid saying lesbian #esp for themself. which is like fine u dont have to id as anything. but like u know the vibe when someone just... yeah idk. #abby talks #and also i was so clear about not wanting anything serious being too busy rn not wanting to string them along when thats not smth im #focused on. and i think theyre just going to hold out hope ill change my mind even tho i already like said what i felt #which is ALSO pissing me off cause then on the other hand i felt sooooooo bad last night. and for what #communicating my feelings? sorry it was a bit abrupt but bitch you are not in love with me u dont know me. UGH! #WHERE is dyke grindr maybe i just need to take a chance out there..

[birbs-in-space]

I was going to make a post but I went to my blog and immediately saw an ad for my old community college

#incidentally i am still technically enrolled in said community college #alongside both of my siblings LMAO you already got me!!! you have 4/5ths of my family!! im the last person you need to advertise to #actually they showed drone footage of one of the buildings they completed while i was there like im not intimately familiar #with what a disaster the construction process was fhkwbfiwkdj #oh right the original post. anyway i was falling asleep at work because i passed out at like 10:30 last night way before i was supposed to #and woke up at 3 am and ended up just staying up to work on Tasks #so i was like. fuck it. caffeine pill. and anyway now im experiencing Constant Anxiety+ but i AM awake so thats nice

[spaceshipkat]

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#look i have no idea where i stand on the idea of heaven (or indeed afterlives and whatnot) #as an agnostic person raised v v v lutheran #(aka my mom worked at our church and my first two jobs were w the church—first helping in the kitchen and then in the nursery w the babies) #(and i was also in the choir to sing and the bell choir playing the itty bitty handbells at the highest octaves) #(basically my siblings and i were at the church pretty much every day of the week) #BUT. TO CEASE WITH RAMBLING. #my eldest brother died eight years ago (we realized my older brother is now the age our eldest brother was when he died) #and it doesn’t really affect me much anymore. i still miss him but it’s not awful yknow? #you never stop missing them but it gets easier to live without them etc etc #however this morning i woke up w depression bc the brain chemistry said ‘ha fuck you’ #but i remember i had a dream last night about my eldest brother and the only thing from that dream that i remember #is him hugging me. like a huge fucking bear hug like i haven’t had since he died. #and i have been a Mess all day as a result bc fucking hell thats what i needed #just a huge fucking bear hug from him #ANYWAY. i have two thousand words to cut from this edit letter due tomorrow so byeee gonna go continue to be a Mess

[barney-x-logs-is-otp-archived]

JUST FINISHED DEAD END SEASON 2 AND I AM NOT OKAY

#dead end #dead end spoilers #LOOK IM TAGGING SPOILERS CUZ IM GONNA RANT IN THE TAGS HERE WE GO #well first of all i started a drawing for nad//yah week last night and now idk what to do with it #cuz like. badyah turned out to be straight #and good for her! straight ppl exist!! #i wouldnt ship a lesbian with a man and the same goes for straight girls with other girls #i just. idk it's a thing thats been on my mind now #ALSO ASMODEUS!!!! #and barnlogs was somehow even more disastrously gay and i love them #COURTNEY FALLEN ANGEL THEORY REAL!!!!! #LOGS HAD AN EMO PHASE AND I NEED TO DRAW IT ASDGSKDHKDHDJD #omg the way norma said 'im bi logs! bi bi bi bi biiii!!' #also lets just pretend pugsley didnt ********* ***** ******* cuz it made me cry #<- (joking! kinda. it was well written and its just the kind of fcked up demon stuff i would expect from this show lmao. i just. yeah) #also i like how the angels werent like. stereotypical angels if that makes sense? #like they werent what normally comes to mind when you think of angels #yknow like feathery wings and white robe thingies and golden halos #ig these angels still have halos but like. different #WAIT I ALMOST FORGOT THE SCENE EVER #'*something about the new thread count of the shirts* i want my old shirt back‚‚‚‚' #'why dont you... take it off?' #I ACTUALLY DIED #also barney whos making fun of you for your weight and your binder?! i want names. i just want to talk 🔪 #k well its midnight so time to go to bed and cry over a cartoon dog 👍

[rindomness]

the akira-isms are akira-isming tonight i fear

#i said something regarding an interaction i'd had today #that i then read back and realized lined up almost EXACTLY #with a DIFFERENT thing i'd said last night in dms to a separate friend about akira kurusu persona 5 #and now im just sitting here like wow i really am not beating the allegations am i #no you dont get to know what it was . thats a secret for me to know and said friends to puzzle out themselves

[icewindandboringhorror]

I think the hardest thing in writing for me sometimes is the like “show don’t tell/let people communicate through subtext/Normal People don’t just walk around openly explaining their motivations for everything That’s Unnatural” thing because like.. I literally DO walk around openly explaining my motivations for everything, that is how I talk, I am an analytical detail oriented over-communicator who explains everything as thoroughly as possible and and will give a fully detailed 2 minute long answer to something simple like “how are you doing today?” .. like it’s hard to make things sound Natural and Normal when you yourself are inherently unnatural and abnormal in your methods of communication to an extent lol

#''hey. whats up? you look kind of sad.. is something wrong?'' normal answer (apparently how people are supposed to talk): *looks away #remosefully and stares into the distance* ''n-no.. I'm fine. don't worry about it.'' abnormal answer (how I would respond): ''Yeah I #'m mostly fine. I was just thinking about what the future is going to be like 30 years from now and if I'll ever actually accomplish anythin #g that I want to. which makes me feel X way for XYZ reason. you see because I had a dream last night that made me think of *continues to exp #lain my exact emotional state and inner thought process completely matter of factly in exact detail for 5 more minutes* #tfw you would be a badly written character if you existed in a story lol #This is also why I struggle making conflict because most conflicts can be resolved through conversation and I personally love to have long #detailed conversations about everything. Like literally I don't have hardly any conflicts interpersonally because if something happens it's #immediately followed up with like ''hey sorry if my tone of voice sounded a bit pointed or harsh. when you were talking to me I was trying #to balance all the stuff I was taking up the stairs and also my leg hurts so I think all my mental energy was being used there and I just #didn't feel like talking. I should have just said 'wait a minute and we can discuss it inside' instead of trying to end the conversation qui #ckly in a short rude way.' ''oh yeah thats fine. I thought it was something like that. sorry for hounding you about the topic as well. i #havent eaten in a while so I think I'm just a bit prickly at the moment. we should both rest for a while and destress from the store #trip and then talk about it later. maybe after lunch?' 'sure. sounds good.' like LITERALLY. lol #it is so hard for me to write characters who are bad communicators or don't understand their own internal states or arent constantly #analyzing their own actions to understand what they do/don't feel and why and what the cause of it is and etc. etc. etc. #I just naturally want everyone to perfectly undertsand everything and communicate amazingly and have complete self awareness and #logical presence of mind gjhbj.. which like.. of course comes across as unnatyural and also those type of people rarely ever get involved in #conflict and conflict is APPARENTLY what drives stories (even though I don't like most conflicts and just want to resolve them lol) so ...aa #I mean you can get around this to some degree by the fact that (at least in my opinion) no rule for dialogue is 100%. dialogue is good if it #sounds naturally like it comes from the character who said it. It can be meandering and pointless and rambly IF that matches the character. #it can be dry and overly self aware IF your character is that way and it suits them. So like throwing in a few detached scholar types or lik #e '5000 year old cave dwelling hermit' type people is good for me and works BUT the thing is an ENTIRE cast of characters can't be that way. #at some point - even in a setting where everyone is reserved and academic (like a research camp in the wilderness full of scholars and stuff #) still SOMEBODY has to be the one who's conflict prone and doesn't pristinely understand all of their emotions and etc. etc. Because statis #tically that is still literally the majority. Kind of like my tendency to make everyone 100% aromantic and asexul when it's like.. YES.. may #be 2 or 3 or even 4 out of 10 of them could be that way. but like.. an entire group? a diverse group of 10 people from all walks of life and #EVERY single one is like that??? hgjh . you have to add realistic variety #As much as I'm pro 'have more stories where sex or romance are literally NOT involved at all in any capacity since it's already oversaturate #d in media' I'm also dedicated to realism. alas. (at least as realistic as you can get in a fantasy setting lol)

[skenpiel]

AAAAAARGHH!!!!!!!!! OK FINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I GIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i guess i do like dirk now. whatever

#had another dream we were buddies it was cool actually #so. whatever. i cave #i think its just cause he reminds me so fucking much of my friend like it is fucking uncanny how alike they are #so whenever i read his dialogue im just like. hehe thats my friend #also. his first interaction with dave (thing i was crying about last night) is so. funny and messed up and well written and weird #its just. so sad. he was really really looiking forward to meeting him #like......... for his whole LIFE he was looking forward to it #and he finally gets to meet his hero and hes so nervous and trying to stay cool and all #hes just. starstruck. and he was really really REALLY looking forward to that conversation #and his personal hero just. makes it a point to let him know how much he fucking hates being there #hes like god i cant wait to go fight that bad guy and dirk has 2 sit there like #ah........ so hed rather risk his life to a maniac with lord english poweres covered in blood than talk to me............. ahhh........... #its just. YOU KNOWWWWW #its endearing. they managed to make it so painfully awkward #they made it SO AWKWARD!!!!!!!!! even worse than roxy and dave straight up called her hot multiple times #and she in return kept prying for information about his love life #and also even when dave said normal things he was awkward as fuck. he asked a question then just Didnt work with it #like........ isnt the point of getting to know people that you ask a question they answer it and then you talk about that topic awhile? #isnt it like.......... more of a pointer on what you can talk about to keep the other persons interest rather than. a genuine question #urgh anyway i fucking give up. i like dirk So what fucking sue me #hey btw i totally forgot about this when you said it but jade when you told me you wanted to fuck dirk what was that about #hes also gay. thats like a whole Thing even though it isnt #care to elaborate on that by any chance. cause id like some clarification on what you meant by that #mainly...................... what part of that man is fuckable.................................... #AHH!!!!!!!! EVIL SPIDER!!!!!!!!

[rirismommyspace]

the weather has been absolutely so warm today but also very nice & I've been having a good day and now I'm about to make some Cheetos Mac & Cheese (Flamin' Hot) (to taste test)

#riri.is.living #my mother has also made some watermelon juice so #god bless that woman fr it's amazing #also thinking back to last night when i was talking about eating something raw #and i just said (let me cook!) because both my mother and brother was looking at me like i was insane #and he just went (thats what you're supposed to do to the food) #anyways #thats the story of the day #do i talk more in the tags than i do in the post ? absolutely. its fine. #it's like a little secret cause who really reads all this #ily to those of you that do

[todayisafridaynight]

I don't wanna laugh at your expense but also KIND OF a funny series of events😭😭😭here's to recouping that $20...

Speaking of Ryuji... I ended up going through like 60 fucking reviews (WILL throw up if I have to read even one more) and while I'm gonna hold my tongue on all that for now, I still can't quite tell if the Ryuji thing is main story or a substory or a substory that's needed to progress... that said, apparently there are a bunch of fights with fakes that feature flashbacks, including a fake Kiryu and a fake Nishiki? Weirdly the flashbacks make me kind of wish there was a fake Mine since I'm not sure there's gonna be anything all that deep with the style change mechanic in Infinite Wealth

it can get even worse Watch This the exam i thought i was gonna have wednesday was today :))))))))))) when i say i had to fight every urge to just get up and start flipping desks :))))))

fake kiryu AND fake nishiki ???? wild....... we finally getting a boss rush mode since like... y3 omg....

#snap chats #speaking of that twenty tho i was just reminded that this morning a commissioner said they couldnt pay me this month #for the like. fourth month in a row 🧍‍♂️ #to top it off when i was going to the dining hall the card i gave :)) the one i didnt need to buy :))) didnt work #i still got in i just had to give my id n umber but it's just inconvenience after inconvenience im over it #//wistfully looking at the Monday poster// oh takagi we're really in it now... #IN ANY CASE. GODSPEED FOR YOU LOOKING AT ALL THEM REVIEWS THANK YOU FOR YOUR WORK #im excited to see what it's all about...... i wont get my hops up about mine cause either way it'll be cool to see ryuji again.. hehe.. #i wonder what his deal gonna be... #now excuse me while i drown my sorrow in food. i took a cookie from a group of three #and in the philippines that tends to be bad luck so <3 #HONESTLY THATS PROBABLY WHY MY DAYS BEEN SO BAD HANG ON. IF I MAY BE SUPERSTITIOUS. #cause last night i ate the rest of the chocolates i got my roommates. its ok they were untouched for a week so #and there was exactly three left oh my god......... ill blame my misofrtune on that fuck it i dont care anymore #ok let me eat all this just so i can throw it up later BYE

[melto]

sometimes i get so anxious when something goes even slightly wrong when sming but then im like Ah well. i literally cannot do anything if im not told the information<3

#like first reh i was like Hey so some of the kids are too young to know their parents contact and the person was like thats fine dw #so i assumed that. the school was passing along the information to the parents bc we have like school admins in the reading #but i was still like Erm. so last night i checked with the big guy at the theatre and he was like WHUH? THOUGHT WE TOOK CARE OF IT #like NO THE OTHER PERSON ABOVE ME JUST SAID ITS FINE!!!! WHAT DO YOU WSNT ME TO DO!!!! #i got all the contact quickly this morning and like one kid has a conflict for the first reading tomorrow but im like OK. #also the contact sheet was supposed to be taken care of before i even got there. thats what i was told. #whateverrrrrr. they put me in a situation. they dont even truly need me bc they have the big guy and the other girl there but #they dont want to be the person sending an email every night or having to print the new script pages #which is FINE but you GUYS STILL HAVE TO TELL ME STUFF. #grrrrr #whatever last reh tonight and 2 readings tomorrow. easy. #news with isaac

[mainfaggot]

I'm so fucking pissed what the hell

#the pharmacy fucked up so bad. #i called last Thursday LAST THURSDAY #about a refill on my sleeping prescription #and then they ordered the wrong medication and when my dad picked it up on his way home from work he didn't notice #(not his fault at all) #but basically i had to call the pharmacy and be like hey so how am i going to get any sleep bc you said my refill would be ready this past #Saturday and then it wasnt #and now on Monday you got the wrong prescription ready #and they're like oops sorrryyyy we'll get it ready for this Wednesday #like thats 3 (three) nights no meds in total #i slept 8 hours last night but i woke up and stayed awake for 1h and like 15 mins in the middle for no reason #(w/o my meds i can't stay asleep) #and i have to do that for two more nights. what the hell man #z.post