#the way that they were so omnipresent that I'd start to get a psychosomatic feeling like they were squirming in my throat

[medicinemane]

Flies are overwhelming me and making me lose my shit

One flew into the fridge while I was getting something out, wouldn't leave, so that fucking sucks that there's gonna be a dead fly to find in there next time it's getting cleaned (covered the little bit of uncovered food)

Then there's one fucking in here, been landing on my screen, and then just dive bombed my arm and fucking feeling it touch me...

If you haven't seen that one picture from when I was cleaning out the trailer I don't think you get why flies upset me so much, why they set me off and I can't fucking deal with them. Even if you have seen it, then you should realize that that's an echo of the past in that picture, and that I was fucking living with those flies while growing up

I want to exterminate every last fucking fly, you just don't get how much they bother me, how much they upset me

Update from while I was writing the tags: that's right, fucking die you stupid shit; you land on the floor and don't move when I come over to you slowly and you fucking die and never bother me again

#I don't toss around the word trigger cause fuck if I know what counts and doesn't and it doesn't really matter #but this likely rises to that level #I can not emphasize enough that once you've fucking lived in a place where you find out that when there's enough flies they act like smoke #it fucking breaks something in you for good and you can't deal with them anymore; can't fucking take them #it's why I fucking tend to keep thumb capping glass bottles or tend to keep the cap on #I literally used to have to or my drink would fill with flies; there's no exaggeration here either; I fucking wish there was #do you fucking understand the horrible footprints they leave behind once there's enough of them? #like have you seen the terrible black spots they'll leave behind? #the way they'd come out of the drain #the way that they were so omnipresent that I'd start to get a psychosomatic feeling like they were squirming in my throat #even though I was pretty sure I hadn't swallowed any #the fucking filth my mom kept me in and the flies the flies the flies the flies #that's why I've had to leave restaurants before because of them; take my food to go #I hope none of you had to live what I'm talking about... but I do wish I could show you for just one day so you'd get it #that's why I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate them #just stay the fuck outside and I'll ignore you; and even in my house I often try to make peace #but... fuck them; they all should die; ecosystems be damned #you know what? I literally like mosquitoes far far far far far better and will go to bat for them #understand that I hate flies so much that I like things that drink my blood and make me itch so much more than I do flies