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[cube-cumb3r]

ppl always talk abt deep talk vs small talk and ive recentlu realized how much love there is in small talk. bc deep talk is transactional, im talking to you to further my understanding of life or the world or you etc and its great but small talk on the other hand is inherently untransactional. there is no purpose or agenda im talking to you because i WANT to talk to YOU. i like you so much im happy to talk about LITERALLY NOTHING with you. there is so much love in talking about the weather

#q-rambl3

[reviviscencegruiform]

[ swimming pool ]  what is the most important lesson they've learned in recent years?

// I would make a joke and say "He's learned to accept food from Harley at gunpoint and that's pretty important" but there's truth in that. Jon's slowly and brutally learning to let himself be cared for. He was never cared for in his childhood or young adult years and it's only really been since he met Jervis that he's been offered true untransactional kindness.

He deeply struggles with accepting even the smallest of interactions as being genuine and always expects the person to be manipulating him in some way or worse setting him up to be humiliated in the next turn. It's why even from children he asks "What can I give you?" "What can I do to repay you?" He thinks they want something, he's not being polite.

Jervis is the only person who fully accepts care from and it's not only because Jervis is the only person to ever earn that level of trust, it's because he's literally has seen the inside of that man's head and has the natural and trained skills to be able to understand the meaning behind Jervis's madness.//

#//.mask.off.// #//I could ramble on and on about this but I'll be good and not//