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#we found a place to sit and find smth to eat but i couldn't eat anything without wanting to throw up
da-proti-toku-grem · 1 month
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how do you know the difference between a huge anxiety attack and a panic attack?
#i think i had a panic attack yesterday but idk......#god it felt so awful and it went on for like 3 hours#but i also had like a hundred things going on so idk if it was like the accumulation of everything or if it was really a panic attack yk#i was at the fair with my family waiting for my best friend to arrive bc i was going to hang out with her#and yk it's a place full of people and we were standing right next to a huge speaker hearing a man talk#and also each place in the fair has different music playing super loud and you can hear all of them at the same time (+ the flashing lights#all that causes me anxiety every since i was little (even if i didn't know it was anxiety back then)#so i *knew* i was going to have the greatest time and i didn't really want to go there in the first place#but even with that i wasn't really haven't a bad time (yet)#we were just stading there and i was waiting for my friend to call me so we could go somewhere else#she called me to tell me she was coming and right when i hung up the phone i felt a really strong pang on my belly#and idk at first i thought it was period cramps but it was weird bc my period had actually stopped that same morning#also i had taken a painkiller right before going there bc all that i mentioned earlier also gives me migraines so there's that too#so yeah the pangs kept getting stronger and it hurt so fucking bad to the point my legs started trembeling#my vision blured and every sound around me seemed to almost fade away#there wasn't any place i could sit down so i gad to cling to my dad and he had to hold me so i didn't fall to the ground#i think i almost (?) fainted in his arms too#after a while the dizzines went away and my dad went to get me smth to drink and i mostly got my hearing and vision back to normal#all that was like 10 minutes max but then the pangs kept hitting every minute or so for the next 3 hours#we found a place to sit and find smth to eat but i couldn't eat anything without wanting to throw up#my legs wouldn't stop shaking like fucking crazy and i kept going from feeling like i was freezing to sweating from how hot i felt#idk i've had smth like this (w/o the pangs) happen to me before a bunch of times but never That strong and it usually lasted 5-10min max#we ended up having to go home and i had to take some more painkillers and my sleeping pills to be able to calm down a little#i'm pretty sure i fell asleep from exhaustion after everything and i'm still feeling a bit weird after almost 24 hours since it happened#anyways. the thing is idk if all that was caused bc of my anxiety#or if it was smth completely unrelated and i just had such a bad tummy ache that it made me feel bad enough to cause All That yknow#i think it felt pretty much like how i've heard people describe a panic attack but again i'm not sure#yeah.........#maca speaks
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darylsfavoritegirl · 4 months
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HEYYYY IM HONESTLY SO FUCKING EXCITED WHAT DO YOU THINK ABT THESE HEADCANONS bc i wanted to do smth like for a while i just never could come up with anything but its easy in a sense sooo here you gooou
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• I don't think his mommy issues are necessarily sexual, sometimes you would do something that would invoke that "motherly" "safe" or "warm" feeling inside of him. He would never be able to understand what it was or would tell anyone about it. It'd be one of the reasons why he'd care for you as much as he did. You'd make him feel safe by saying something or embracing your arms around him in a certain way which would make him commemorate his mother, though because his mom died when he was young, he wouldn't be able to understand it at all bc he doesn't consciously remember those moments with her. This man fr would think you'd cast a spell on him :D
• I just know this man is a feminist in the core. Growing up, he'd always hear Merle running his mouth about women and how they were like this and they were like that, overall his ignorant, blunt, dumb thoughts about women. He would witness his dad going off on benders with different women each time and how he'd vulgarly talk about them later. And hell maybe he's disrespected women or been really cruel to them but he still regrets it to this time and yeah we all know this man suffers in redemption, always trying to make up for his past mistakes and wrongs. Yet I'm %100 sure he loves seeing women thrive, turning into their best selves or just witness them be real badass and it might even give him some kind of arousal 👀👀. He is into that shit. I said what I said.
• One of his love languages is definitely showing you the places he'd used to spend his time in. Could be a special spot in the woods, could be a small cabin he'd used to get lit with people. Hell it could be random corner in town whenever you'd have to be in downtown for various reasons. He wouldn't even mind if those places brought him bad memories or unpleasant ones. He'd just like being there with you, doing whole ass story times and watch you react them with a wide-eyed expression. He did have a weird and a "crazy" life before the fall that'd make him feel like he was on mushrooms everytime just thinking about it. He'd love letting you know more and more about his past. It would just give him a reassuring feeling deep down. He would feel like it would bound you two together.
• That.man.has.a.sweet.tooth. He loves anything that has sugar. He'd always snack on candies or cookies or chocolates after a hangover. Or when he'd be on drugs. Sugar wakes him the fuck up and he loves the energy boost. He'd carry some candies in his pocket back in the day, eating them throughout the day when he'd feel his blood sugar dropping.
• He is definitely a car-date type of guy. He got more into it after the apocalpyse started and he met you. Sometimes you'd go on runs and you could sit in the car for hours, smoking, eating, talking or yk👀👀 if supplies you found weren't an emergency need. He absolutely savored those moments. You could sit for hours without speaking, in a complete silence. He appreciates quietude.
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• I know him having a breeding kink is well known and acknowledged but he's insane about it that it hurts. He loves seeing you all squirmed and whiny underneath him with all his cum inside of you, some of it dripping down your thighs. You couldn't always find the right pills for unplanned pregnancy risk and it WOULD drive him crazy to not be able to it.
• He just loves to see you messy beneath him. Hair all tangled, thighs shaking uncontrollably. Your fingers digging so deep on his shoulders that you'd cause his broad shoulders to bleed sometimes, he loved it. Your eyes are all glossy with pleasure. You both would love to go wild and leave sloppy kisses on eachother's bodies and wouldn't mind them drying on your bodies at all, leaving it all sticky.
• He loves being submissive as much as he loves being dominant. You can't convince me otherwise. If you gained his trust, he will be all yours, all needy beneath you while you ride his soul out of his damn body. Again, he adores a badass woman, a woman to take the lead. You would place your hands on his chest and sometimes hold his strong large biceps and he wouldn't dare to move an inch. He liked being vulnerable like that.
• He is just so patient it physically throws you over the edge. He'd get so close making you cum and he'd stop, teasing you with his tip or fingers or sometimes his tongue. He'd smirk at you and even make fun of you in a taunting way to overstimulate you and don't worry he'd make up for it with better ways. He knows what he is doing. It's just come natural to him.
• It's safe to say you are the one who teases him in the public most of the time, your feet tracing his legs up until it stops on his bulge under the table and he'd give a stern stare, trying to shrug and look indifferent as others would notice his suddenly-changing demenour. However, there'd be boring Alexandria dinners that Deanna would host and if you sat next to eachother, he'd place his large hand on your thigh and even dare to slip a finger on the fabric of your panties, starting to rub his middle finger harshly in circles while having full ass conversations with people and try to hide his subtle smirk bearing his face. He would do it rarely yet he'd be so good at it because no one would suspect a thing, he'd always make it look like he was resting his arm on your lap. You'd squirm under his warm touch and heat waves would wash all over you while trying to look normal as ever. And believe me, after those nights, when you'd confront about him about what he did at a dinner with 20 people, he'd act as if he doesn't understand a thing you're saying or would say "Don' kno' what yer talkin' 'bout." while shrugging his shoulders and turning to his side with a wicked grin.
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well this actually took shorter than i thought idk why i believed it would take me couple of days to finish one lmao i deadass wrote this in like an hour max ???? anyway i wish there were more but idc i was so impatient to post one of theseeee :)))
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t4t4t · 11 days
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You make so many excuses for her but even when things are good she is bad to you. You are worth more then being her punching bag for how suicidal she is...
yeah I'm not sure why when we were housed at Bird's or Rachel's or Blue's that she (sometimes?) couldn't tell I was trying ? I didn't have a job during any of these periods but I cooked for her basically 90% of the time -- like uh.
(Bird's was a better place to find a job than Rachel's, and less expensive, but they got me sick inviting someone to visit in December. I missed work thru Greenforce then, and missed work thru Greenforce due to the ice storm, but they haven't been offering more in the spring like they said they would. A grocery store can employ 300 people to do fuck all all day but a cannabis company wants like 3 people to tear down a whole farm in a month. So stupid.
I found something thru Fieldworks I guess I'm gonna see how it works out, I went to the orientation yesterday, I need to get cleared with the state so I can legally "circulate petitions." Which is probably boring. But...)
[I need a computer to make music ? I don't think I've ever bought a computer. :--/ used to have a laptop that from my sisters ex but it's too old and weird now. the fan was always so loud, I think smth was wrong w the fan that I never fixed. It turns on but doesn't recognize my hard drive anymore. Idk]
Once at Rachel's the three of us were sitting down to eat dinner and I said something about her being rude or something and she just immediately called me a rapist in front of Rachel and I just got up and ate the food in the bathroom.
I think what Blue is implying is it's not necessarily either of our faults for it to have been a "mistake" for us to have been invited in to stay, but I can probably assume that Collie will understand this to mean that she did nothing wrong and that it's my fault she's homeless.
(Or Jikijij's fault, too, now. And so on.)
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kpopsickies · 1 year
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I have absolutely 0 idea how many hours its been but how about a svt Jun fic where he's maybe allergic to smth and keeps sneezing from it and Minghao gets concerned? I'm a sucker for junhao lmao
sickie: Jun
caretaker: Minghao
This was fun to write
Hao p.o.v
I was bored, very bored. It felt like it had been the longest day ever. I sighed loudly and went in search of something to do. It wasn't long before I found Jun, he looked equally as bored as me. Sitting on the couch scrolling on his phone, but eyes unfocused and empty with boredom. "Jun?" I said, he flinched slightly, snapping back to focus. "what's up?"
"I'm bored. Let's go get food" He smiled and slid his phone into his pocket. "Sounds good. I was about to go insane" he said with a laugh. The two of us got ready and left. "I swear I was 2 seconds from insane" I said with a laugh. "same here. It's never that quiet in the dorm. But with the whole vocal and hiphop unit out it gets quiet." Jun said, he cleared his throat after. "So what do you want to eat?" he asked, clearing his throat a second time. "Honestly anything. I was more interested just getting out of the house" I said, "I know there's a really good korean bbq nearby, how does-" he paused, I glanced over at him, as I did he turned away, and brought his hands up to his face, "heKKtcha- ehh-kTcha- KKtcHa"
"Bless you"
"thanks-" he cleared his throat, "what was I saying?"
"Korean Bbq. Sounds good to me"
"Perfect" He sniffled and cleared his throat. "why do you keep doing that?" I asked, "doing what?" he asked, and cleared his throat. " THAT!" he still looked confused, "you keep clearing your throat."
"Oh, that" He laughed, "My throat itches"
"are you okay?"
"yeah, I'm not exactly sure why" He sniffled, he turned away from me again. "kKtcha- ehKt-CHA- hktchA"
"jeez dude, you okay?"
"yeah, nose is itchy, throat is itchy. Actually kinda everything is. I'm not sure what's wrong"
"Hope you're not getting sick" I said, I placed a hand on his forehead. "You don't feel warm. "Don't feel sick. Just itchy"
"Is it allergies?"
"I don't have any allergies, except for cats. And I haven't been around any" He said, he brought a fist up to his face and rubbed his nose. "That's strange" I looked around, just in case, but I also noticed his sweatshirt looked strange. "Who's jacket is that?" He looked a bit confused, "Isn't it yours?" he said giving me a strange look, "no, I've never seen it before."
"It was in your bag from yesterday"
"It's not mine" I said, "can I see it?" He took it off, I looked at it, "where did you say you found it?"
"Your bag"
"I must have grabbed someone else's at Inkigayo yesterday" I said turning the hoodie over my fingers. I handed it back to him. "Lets see if we can find out whose it is" I took my phone out, "it's definitely a guy's. It looks a bit small on you"
"That's because it is" he said, he took the hoodie back from me and put it on, "but it's warm and I'm cold" he sniffled and turned away from me and sneezed openly on the ground, "ktchA- hhktChaa"
"bless" he sniffled and mumbled a thanks. "so, from what I gathered, the boy groups there yesterday were txt, stray kids, nct DoJaeJung, and then Taeyang."
"Must be one of theirs. But I'm pretty sure it's not any of the TXT members. It's too small."
"could be Taeyang, it's hhKtchA- EktcHAa- the right size" He pulled out his phone, "And honestly any of the DoJaeJung members are the right height" He sniffled, I glanced over at him, I couldn't figure out why he was sneezing so much. I looked at the hoodie, and suddenly noticed a few white hairs. I facepalmed, "Jun take the jacket off" he looked confused, "why?"
"because, I just found something that will help narrow our options down" I explained as he pulled the jacket off and handed it to me. I plucked a single white hair off of the sleeve. "Cats"
"That's why I'm so sneezy!" He said, looking a bit annoyed but also amused. "Who of those people have cats?" I said, we both paused to think. "I know Lee Know from stray kids has cats. Multiple of them"
"Let's try there first then. And besides we're near the JYP building." He said, he rubbed his nose. "I'm glad we at least figured out what was making me sneeze" He said, he cleared his throat. "still itchy though" He said a bit exasperated. "Once we return the hoodie we can go back to the dorm and you can shower. Then we can get food."
"Sounds good, this is much more exciting than sitting around all day" he said with a laugh. I laughed too. "It would be a bit better if you weren't sneezing your head off with it"
"true, can't argue with you on that one" he said with an itchy sounding sniffle. "Do you by any chance have any tissues?" He asked, I shook my head. "sorry. Do you need to stop at a drug store and pick some up"
"Might be a good idea" he said, he rubbed his nose. "Alright, we'll stop on the way." I pulled out my phone and checked to make sure I was going in the right direction. We started off towards the JYP building. On the way we found a small corner store where we stopped to picked up a pack of tissues, "do you also need to get allergy medicine?"
"I have some at home. I think I'll be okay. Just don't get the jacket too close to me."
"Don't worry Jun, I'll protect you from the scary jacket" He rolled his eyes, I laughed. We left the store with the tissues. As soon as we were outside he took a few out and blew his nose. "Ugh"
"you okay?"
"yeah. Just itchy"
"Don't worry we're only about 10 minutes from the JYP building"
"okay, thanks"
"no problem" We walked to the building. Once we got there we stood awkwardly by the door, "How do we get inside?"
"I... don't know" I said, "Don't you have Yugyeom's phone number? He could let us in" He suggested, "He's not under JYP anymore though"
"oh yeah... he still might be able to help though"
"Maybe. We can try" I said, I took my phone out and clicked on Yugyeom's name, on the 3rd ring it picked up. "What's up Hao?"
"Can you help us get into the JYP building" The line was quiet for a second, "Hao, respectfully, what the fuck"
"Okay so basically yesterday on Inkigayo I accidentally grabbed someone's hoodie. And we're 90% sure it belongs to one of the Stray Kids members. So we're trying to get inside."
"got it" I heard him laugh a bit, "Let me call Chan, he'll be more help than me"
"thanks Yugs"
"No problem" I heard him laugh as he hung up,
Chan p.o.v
I was with my members practicing for our performance tomorrow evening, we were thankfully on break, when my phone rang. I was confused to see Yugyeom was calling me. "Hey hyung what's up?"
"This is a strange question, but can you let a friend of mine inside. They have to get inside, but I don't have access anymore."
"uh, okay" I said, "thanks" he hung up, but i heard his laughing as he did. I was confused, but saw no issue with it. I told my members that I would be right back and went downstairs to the front entry.
Surprised, was an understatement for what I saw. "Hello sunbaenim" I said bowing, "Hello Chan-ssi" Minghao said, "also, hyung is fine" Jun said. I noticed he looked a little worse for wear. "What brings you guys here?"
"uh, actually I think I accidentally picked up someone's hoodie at inkigayo yesterday" Minghao hyung said, he showed me the hoodie. I recognized it right away, "That's Minho's" I said, "come on, I'll show you where he is so you can give it to him" I led them through the halls to the practice room. "hey guys, I'm back. And I brought guests." The others all stopped what they were doing and politely greeted the seventeen members. "What are you guys doing here?" Jeongin asked, "um actually I accidentally stole your hoodie" Minghao said, as he pointed to Minho. Mingaho extended the folded sweatshirt to him, "Oh my God, thank you, I've been looking everywhere for it"
"Glad we could get it back to you" Jun said with a bright smile. "how did you guys figure out it was mine?" Minho asked, "We just looked up who the male idols that were at Inkigayo yesterday. There weren't a ton. Which helped. But then-"
"EhktcHA- KKtcHa hh-ehhktchA- eh-hktcHA"
"Bless you" We all said, Jun thanked us, "Thankfully we could use this-" Mingaho waved a hand over to Jun, "To conclude the owner of the hoodie also had cats"
"I KNEW IT" Hyunjin said, he turned to the seventeen members, "I was having a debate, because yesterday I was sneezing before out performance, and Minho hyung said there was no way it was just from the cat hair on his hoodie. This proves my point" Minho rolled his eyes, "Sorry for causing you to have an allergic reaction" Minho said to Jun, ignoring Hyunjin. "It's fine. Glad it helped us find who the hoodie belongs to." Jun said with a light laugh. "would you guys like to stick around for a little while?"
"thanks for the offer, but we've got to get going. It was nice talking to you guys" Minghao hyung said, "Hey, while you're here, why don't I get your numbers. Just in case something happens. Or if you guys ever want to do a dance collab definitely hit us up" Jun said, he set his phone down on a table, and each member took turns putting their number in. "Share them with me" Mingao hyung said, nudging his member. "I will" The two of them said goodbye and left the company.
Jun p.o.v
"I am so ready to get home, I'm so itchy I feel like I ate, drank, and bathed in poison ivy" I said, rubbing my eyes. "You can make it. It's only about 15 minutes. I know it's not ideal" Hao said, he squeezed my shoulder. We walked back to the dorm, and right away I went to take a shower, feeling relieved and better already.
The hot water loosened the congestion and brought itchiness with it. After showering I went off in search of Minghao. I found him in the living room, "I know we were planning on going out to eat, but I'm tired, and assumed you-"
"EHktCHa- kktcHHa"
"Bless you. I assumed you would be pretty worn out from your allergies, so I ordered food."
"sounds good. I am super worn out"
"should be here soon. In the meantime," he handed me the bottle of allergy pills. "thank you" I went to the kitchen and took them, and blew my nose. "That was fun. Despite my allergies acting up, it was fun to spend the day with you. And going on a little adventure"
"I had fun too" He said, "we should go on wild goose chases more often" he said, I laughed. "Agreed"
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belovedtylerr · 9 months
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Stu Macher x Reader 'Playboy💔'
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So, since im a sucker for angsty fluff ig?? I decided to write smth.)
Warnings: just basic angst?
February. Love was in the air and the aroma was all over you're school! Lucky you! Well, maybe not. You had liked one of you're 'friends' Stu. Though it seemed he already had his eyes glued to someone else. You couldn't help but feel a slight bit of jealousy when he gaze went onto his new girl for the week. He changes girls like he changes socks. Its quite pathetic in you're eyes. And what you would give just for him to be with you, even for a sick and twisted bet or dare made by Billy. You didn't have high hopes for February, the 'month of love' according to most. Only thing you could think about is just getting through the month without embarrassing yourself.
You were currently sitting with the group, as stu came along, surprisingly late. "Man, sorry im late you guys. What'd I miss?" he had that iconic smile as always, before taking a seat next to you. "You're fine. We know you have girls dragging you down." Randy teased, though you didn't find it very funny. You continue eating F/F, (favorite food) Stu looks at Randy with a smirk. "I bet you're wishin' that was Sid holden ya down." Randy laughed awkwardly before putting a hand behind his neck. Sidney just looked over, before brushing it off. Stu wrapped an arm around you're waist, pulling you into a sideways hug. You smiled shyly before looking up at him. "Im havin' another party at my place- i figured that I should invite you, its a gentleman thing after all." a devilish smile came to his lips, before laughing. You're gut was telling you this was a bad idea, but you couldn't resist the temptation. "Ill come. Thanks, Stu." you smile once again. "Its a date!" he hugs you tightly before winking. "Cya later girlie." and with that, hes off. Tatum looked over. "There goes another broken one." she rolled her eyes before frowning. "What are you implying.?" you raised a brow. "You'll see, Y/N."
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Later that night, you arrived at Stus house. Flashing lights, beer bottles, popcorn and snacks. You walked in, wearing O/F/C (outfit of choice) as Stu greets you. "Ayy Y/N! Bout time ya showed up." He swung his arm around you, giving a light peck on the head. "How about we get you somethin to drink. You look great." All you could hear was faint music and yells and laughter in the background. You decided to go with him, as if you had a choice. He walks you over and hands you a beer before grinning as wide as possible. "You know.. I was just thinkin.. Lately you've been on my mind and I dunno how to you know.." He looks away from you, as you felt yourself heating up. As you smile, feeling yourself swoon over him. He winked at you before smiling sheepishly. Oh the way you hated how he could be so charming. "I was thinking we could go on a date sometime, maybe that ice cream shop around town?" He said, a grin still plastered on his face. You blushed once again."yeah, that sounds nice." He makes finger guns at you."its a date!!" He starts to walk toward the living room, leaving you in the kitchen with a beer in you're hand. Randy came soon after."I wouldn't trust him, Y/N." You glance up/down/ at him."Who, Stu? No way he would be mean, everybody likes him he can't be that bad." He frowned."Thats the point. Everyone likes him, I wouldn't be surprised if you found him with another girl." You refused to believe him, though a part of you wanted to.
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nahoyaglock · 3 years
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↬ BEACH DATE
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bf!bakugou x fem!reader, fluff, 1.7k words
A/N! i did not reread or fix anything in here, so im so sorry abt bad grammar or spelling errors or smth. inspired by jj (@prettysetterbaby) and her answer to what her dream date is, say thank you jj
"spending my day up at a beach house, eating out to some nice sushi or something and spending the day shopping and eventually relaxing on the beach <333" — JJ
likes and reblogs are very appreciated !!!
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you planned on spending a day with your boyfriend, katsuki. you swung your arms as you waited on the porch of your boyfriends house, watching him slip his shoes on through his open door. once he finished, he grabbed his bag and exited his house, locking the door behind him after shouting a "goodbye" to his mom.
you hopped on one foot excitedly as you linked arms with katsuki, him sending you a cocky grin. "you ready to have the best day ever princess?" he asked, leaning down to place a kiss on your forehead.
"any day with you is the best day ever." you stated and nudged him with your elbow. he rolled his eyes playfully and chuckled. "god, your so cheesy."
you guys arrived at the subway station and took seats next to the window. katsuki wrapped his arm around you and pulled you close to him, moving his hand up to play with your hair. katsuki knew it would be a while till you guys got to your stop, so he let you relax against his figure and even take a small nap.
he made sure to make sure you didnt mess up your light makeup, knowing you'd be upset since you left your makeup at home, or fixing your hair whenever you shifted so it wouldn't get tangled. after almost 2 hours of riding, you felt a light shake of your arm, and slowly sat up.
you went to wipe your face but felt katsukis arms stop you. "don't ruin your makeup princess." he said and you giggled tiredly, still trying to shake off the sleep as he helped you stand. "thanks katsu." you yawned and he dragged you out the subway train so you didn't miss the open doors.
katsuki pulled out a water bottle and handed it to you and you took it, taking small sips. you smiled as you screwed the top back on, placing it in his bag and taking his hand in yours. "my katsu is so caring, huh?" you ask, turning to see your boyfriends slightly pink cheeks.
"yeah, whatever." he mumbled and patted your head, earning a giggle. "you wanna eat first?" he asked as you guys stepped out of the subway station. it was a bit of a walk to the pier, so you guys had small conversation.
you linked your arm with his and looked up at him, "yeah, lets get some, uh.. oh! sushi!" you bounced and shot a big smile at your boyfriend, one he just couldn't refuse. "fine, you crazy woman," he patted your head and shot you a smirk, "my woman." you rolled your eyes and walked closer to your boyfriend, slightly leaning against him.
the sun beat down on you two as you made your way to the pier, eventually arriving. you felt the cool breeze from the ocean, versus the heat from the summer sun, it was refreshing. you two walked down the pier to find a place to eat, one that had sushi of course. "oh, katsu!" you called tugging on your boyfriends arm and pointing to a restaurant.
he turned his head and smiled in the direction of the restaurant. "good eye babe." he held your hand and you two entered the restaurant. after waiting for a waiter to lead you to your table, katsuki shot you a smile. "someone looks mighty happy huh?"
you kicked his leg under the table with a giggle. "of course, who wouldn't when they're with their favorite boy at a sushi restaurant." you stated and reached over to oinch katsukis slightly tinted cheeks. "someones turning red~" you teased and earned a scoff from the ash blonde sitting across from you.
"yeah, whatever woman." he rolled his eyes as the waiter came over to take your orders, and after a few minutes of waiting, your food was served and you two dug in. "hey babe." katsuki caught your attention, looking at you with a sort of blank expression. "hmm, what is it katsu?" you asked as you took a sip of your drink. "i was just thinking, do you want to do a bit of shopping before we go to the beach? theres alot of nice shops on the pier." he said and took a bite of his food.
you smiled and nodded at him, "of course id wanna shop, why? was there something you wanted to get?" you asked, raising a brow at him with a smile. he nodded and took a sip of his drink before replying. "shark tooth necklace." he said with a smirk.
you groaned and rolled your eyes playfully. your eyes kinda hurt from how many times you've done that today. "i should've known." you chuckled out, continuing to eat. he furrowed his brows slightly, watching you with a small frown. "is there something wrong with that." his expression made you almost frown at how upset he looked.
"oh my katsu! i didn't mean it like that!" i nearly shouted, cupping his face and placing a small kiss to his lips. "i just meant that i should've known its something you'd want! its actually really cute." you say and search his face for any change in expression.
hos lips turn up into a playful smiled as he lets out a laugh, "i know shitty woman, i was just messing." your jaw dropped as he took another bite of his food. you sit back and cross your arms glaring at him. "first thing im buying is some boxing gloves."
after your meal, you guys split the bill and head out to explore the shops on the pier. you find a cute little flower shop, some surfboard stands, lots and lots of food places, and a small gift shop. a few other stores too, but those were the ones you guys visited.
katsuki looked around the gift shop for a shark tooth necklace as you toyed with anything that caught your eyes. you found some cute earings, shark week magazines, snacks– you made sure to grab a bag of chips and some gummies –and other stuff.
you were about to pass up the necklace section till something caught your eye. a shark tooth necklace! you made sure to grab it and find katsuki. as you ran up to him, surprising him with a backhug, you held your hand infront of his face, letting the necklace dangle infront of his face.
"wha- babe!" he said and grabbed the necklace, looking at it with an excited smile. he turned to you and kissed you, holding you close by your waist. you were shocked by his sudden action, but when he pulled away you chuckled and smacked his chest with your palm. "damn katsuki, you really wanted it that bad?" you ask.
he chuckles and nodded at you. he lifted his hand and mimicked the way you dangled the necklace, but in his hand was a cute jellyfish plushie. you squeaked and grabbed it, looking down at it with a wide smile. "thought my princess would like this, hmm?" he asked and you hugged him.
after buying your items, plus a bunch of random snacks katsuki grabbed last minute, you two make your way to the beach. the WAAA alk alomg the pier is pretty, seeing the tall trees and shining sun refelecting off the vibrant green grass and the beautiful blue ocean.
once you two arrive at the beach, katsuki sets down his bag and pulls out a large blanket. you stand a bit farther away from your boyfriend and closer to the ocean, watching as kids played in the waves and surfers rode them. you bounced excitedly and waddled over to your boyfriend, watching him set the blanket onto the sand.
"katsu katsu katsu!!" you giggled with excitement as he sat down onto the blanket, anchored down by anything heavy enough to keep it from blowing away, though the wind wasnt too strong luckily. "yeah yeah, put on some sunscreen idiot." he said as he motioned you over. you took a seat on the blanket infront of bakugou, smiling at him as he helped you put on sunscreen.
after you two finished, he put the sunscreen away and grabbed your hand as he stood up. you suggested that you walk along the shore as the sun set, and after spending a while eating and shopping, it was almost time. "cmon! lets go katsuuu!"
he watched you as you dragged him towards the waves, big smile on your face and he swore that your eyes sparkled. he squeezed your hand tightly as he gazed past you at the ocean. you two watched the waves dance and crash and the beautiful pink sky slowly fade into a dark purple hue.
feeling the ocean on your feet, you turned to your boyfriend, met with a gaze, and expression that you aren't quite able to read. "whats that look katsu?" you asked, smiling as he released your hand and wrapped his arm around your waist. "dont worry about it dummy," he joked and you pouted at b b him, "love."
you felt your face heat up and you elbowed him lightly. "im serious katsu, like deadass." you turned to look at the waves. "im deadass too. you know i love you.. i don't get serious like this often so just accept it dummy." he said and lightly flicked your cheek. you smiled up at your ash blonde boyfriend, and jumped up to place a kiss on his cheek.
the sky shifted to a darker blue tone, white specks twinkling in the sky. stars, just like the ones bakugou sees in your eyes. your eyes were his galaxy and your smile was his sun.
as your boyfriend watched the stars twinkle, you watched him, his small smile warming your heart and his eyes twinkling, reflecting the beautiful scatter of dots in the sky.
you two had so much love for each other, so much care and passion. small moments like these may be simple, things considered cliches, but all those cliche stories made sense in that moment. those cliches were true and you were happy to be experiencing these feelings with your love, and he felt lucky to spend them with you too.
"hey katsu." you whispered over the sounds of the waves, but loud enough for him to hear. "yes princess?" he looked down at you.
"i love you. so much."
"i love you too sweetheart."
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minamrose · 4 years
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Pairing : youngk/brian-reader
Warnings : swearing, physical violence, mention of harassment
Genre : angst, fluff
Summary : brian, one of your closest friends learns that you slept with one of the guys he hates the most at your school (you didn't actually) , and he gets angry at you because you don't want to talk to him about it, he's also a bit jealous. But the he learns the truth and happy ending 🌹
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You were about to crack. If you heard him say something more, you were afraid you'll punch him.
"didn't know you were that type of person y/n"
He was sitting right in front of you across the table. You raised your gaze slowly and looked at him. He was furious, you could feel it even if he tried to remain calm. All he wanted was to provoke you right now... The others around you started talking in murmurs. You bit your lip.
"Brian , calm down it's not the time nor the Pl..." you started calmly trying to avoid a really embarrassing situation
But he didn't seem to care
"is it the time and place to tell everyone that you're just a little whore?"
That's it, you couldn't take it anymore. You couldn't believe he went that far. You stood up before slapping him in the face so hard that the whole cafeteria heard it and was now turned towards you. You felt a heavy silence cover the whole place, as everyone was impatiently waiting for the next thing you were going to do. You didn't think twice and took your plate of spaghetti to pour it all over brian as he remained silent. You gave him a last look and he could see the hurt in your eyes. "fuck you Brian, I thought you were different". You managed to keep your voice from cracking and got out of the cafeteria as fast as you could. You wanted to cry, and you did, in the toilets.
Brian regretted what he said as soon as the words left his mouth. He wasn't one to handle his emotions very well, especially when it was about you. He hurt you, he knew it. But he was still mad at you, for so many reasons, reasons he thought he will never find the courage to tell you. He silently got out of the cafeteria , as everyone laughed at him.
18h36
You were home.
You were going through your last texts with Brian, last night and started reminiscing about everything that happened since then.
*Text*
You : sorry for yesterday night, I had to take care of something important
Bribri : oh I know
You : really?? What do you know
Bribri : with Josh... Out of all the boys out there... You must have lost your mind or smth, wtv, not my business
You : yeah not your business, why you being so rude tho?
Bribri: I'll talk to you tomorrow
You : hello am I talkin to my dad?
*/Text*
He didn't answer anymore. You were so confused. The next morning (today), you two talked, indeed. You didn't quite remember at which point you two got really mad at each other...
*flashback*
"Brian, I don't really get why we are having this conversation.." you said, exhausted
"I just don't think I can be friends with you anymore if you're not being honest with me... I swear you hate that guy since elementary school and now he's talking about you like you're his bitch..." he sighed "he sent that photo of you to everyone y/n! " he looked into your eyes as he almost screamed. You crossed your arms over your chest and raised an eyebrow trying to cover the fact that you were anxious.
"okay then, don't be friends with me.. Gosh why are you being so childish..." you then started walking away, trying to escape the situation.
Brian remained static, he had felt your words as if they were bullets. "don't be friends with me", "so childish". He couldn't believe that was what you thought about him. He was worried about you and you just saw him as an exasperating presence. He exhaled deeply, trying to relax his tense jaw.
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That same morning you texted that Josh, told him you needed to talk to him. You met at the library, on a corner where nobody could see you.
"okay, you got what you wanted, you made me a whore in the eyes of the entire school, can you stop now? Like get to your next prey I don't know, leave me alone"
"y/n, you don't get to tell me what to do. What about you come to my house later and we get some more pictures of you and... "
You didn't listen to his next words. Your mom is a psychologist, and Josh is one of her patients, she's talked to you a bit about him mostly to warn you about him because the boy is Psycho. He was smirking at you. You were absolutely disgusted.
" you're really sick in the head aren't you? What do you think everyone will think about you if I tell them what you were REALLY doing that night? " you threatened him
"don't be so stupid. I already told you that you better not say anything or I'll make my parents ruin your mom's reputation, she will never be able to work again and..."
"I don't care about my mom" you cut him "so if I want to tell the truth I will and I don't care if you ruin her she's a bitch"
He looked at you as if you were crazy. He seemed afraid though.. He stared at you silently before sighing.
"and I AM the psycho right? Okay, okay, I'll stop..."
You gave him a last menacing look before leaving him.
You had lied. You didn't hate your mom and you weren't going to put her career at risk, but at least it seemed to have worked.
Later that day you went to the cafeteria to eat with your usual friends, including Brian. You really didn't want to be cold with him. So you sat in front of him, in hopes of relaxing things with him. Well, it only made things worse. You had never seen Brian so mad at you, he ignored you everytime you talked to him, he didn't even look at you. You had enough. "Brian, stop it now" you said to him multiple times. Sharp words came out of his mouth, such as "y/n can you understand that I can't always be on your side? I have the right to not wanting to talk to you", "are you in lack of attention? Gosh", "why did you even sit in front of me" . You just looked at him in awe, your eyes became wet as you looked away, trying not to lose your temper. Your friend asked you "what's wrong with him? What did you do?" and everyone else saw his attitude towards you. And then you know what happened.
*/flashback*
You sighed deeply, laid in your bed and closed your eyes.
Brian could be such a prick sometimes. He really was someone who could hurt with his words. But you knew him, and he only did that when he was hurt aswell.
But why was he so quick to judge you? Couldn't he wait for you to tell him what is going on? He was being such a child honestly. You spent the night thinking about him.
You put your phone in your sweater's pocket.
You were almost falling asleep when you felt your phone under your belly. You opened your eyes and looked at the screen.
Bribri : I'm outside.
Wtf. You frowned as you got up of your bed, your phone in hand. It was like 2 am.
You : you serious
Bribri: yes
Half awake, you took baby steps to your room's door. You tried not to make a sound while getting down the stairs. You put on your coat and opened the door of your house. You found a freezing Brian standing outside. He looked at you but not for long. His eyes were admiring the floor apparently. You put your hands in the pockets of your coat and approached him slowly.
"you wanna sit?" you offered and you two sat on the chairs that were on your porch. They weren't the most comfortable but it was better than nothing.
"you could have waited tomorrow.." you said in a low voice
"I know I... I probably should just go home and let you sleep.. I'm sorry I d.. I don't know why I.." he started getting up but you grabbed his arm
"brian.. I can't go to sleep now it would be torture."
"right..." he sighed, sitting down
You had your arms crossed, waiting for him to talk but he seemed to be struggling. At the moment you were so angry at him you thought you'd better shut up.
"y/n... I'm so sorry" he started
His voice was low but you heard the sincerity in his words.
"I didn't mean to tell you those things it's just that... I don't know..."
"you called me a whore, in front of everybody"
"I apologize y/n! But You told me I was being childish when I was worried about you and tried to reach to you.. You rejected me and treated me like I was crazy.."
"I know.." you admitted
" y/n you just leave at 2 am at a party without saying anything " he took a deep breath " do you know how much I panicked when you didn't answer your phone that night? I thought something had happened to you... "
" I know, I'm sorry I should have texted you but.. "
" And next thing I know, everyone is saying you spent the night with that bastard " you saw his face change as he said those words, you could sense the anger coming out of him
" Brian..."
"after that you didn't come to school for like two days and you wouldn't even answer my calls or my texts ... so yeah, I was really annoyed at you... You acted as if I didn't exist when all I wanted was to help you, and then you want to act as if nothing happened" he stopped, his eyes were wandering in front of him, in the dark "but it made me realize something, It made me realize.. that I mean nothing to you"
You stared at him in silence as he nervously played with his hands. Tears started to come to your eyes.
"And it hurts honestly, because maybe.. You mean too much to me"
"stop it" you said in a quiver as you stood up to wipe your tears
"yeah I'll stop, don't worry about it" he finally said with a raspy voice as he tried not to let you know he too was about to cry
He quickly stood up and started walking away.
But you followed him.
"Brian stop!"
He did, you walked to him and stood in front of him. Your eyes were glittery and your nose was runny.
"you don't get it, please listen to me!" you felt the tears run down your hot cheeks
"I.. Am not perfect Brian" your voice was trembling"I tried to help a friend who had been drugged at the party and they were about to use her for god knows what, but they.. Josh wouldn't let us go unless I took that photo he's been showing everywhere.."
"wait... What? Why didn't you tell me?!"
"I don't know... I was ashamed.. I didn't want to bother you with my problems... I didn't know how to tell you that... Brian I.." you looked away as you took one deep breath
"did he touch you?! Who else was there y/n?! " he sounded infuriated
"no... He just said if I told anybody he would tell his parents to ruin my mom's reputation. The other guys, I don't know their names but I think they are in the football team. "
"sick bastard.. I forgot his parents were richer than anyone in this town" his hand furiously went through his messy hair
"please don't do anything" you asked him
He looked at you. The anger vanished from him as he saw your face buried in tears. He softly took your face into his hands and gently, with his sleeve, dried your cheeks.
"do you understand now?" you asked
His head tilted "I do"
He silently pulled you into his arms. You felt so vulnerable yet so good at that exact moment. You detached a bit from him in order to look at him.
"so... How much do I mean to you exactly? "
He glued his eyes to yours.
"you mean everything to me" he whispered
You smiled.
"Brian, I'm sorry I made you think I didn't care about you, it's not true."
He smiled too.
"please don't do it ever again"
"also, thank you for being there"
He rubbed his thumb against your rosy cheeks. "I'll always be there for you"
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