#where is my energy then!!! why didn't my meds fix that toooo

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#so I really wanted to go to the karaoke thing organised by our study association tonight #bc yesterday we had dinner with a few people from our course and it was really nice and one of them is #on the committee and she told us we should come and I've never been at a karaoke thing before and I wanna experience that #also the girl who asked is rly cute u know #but I slept for like 5hrs tonight and I've been feeling a wee bit Drained too and just fell asleep for 2hrs and also the karaoke is starting #exactly now. I could still have dinner and get dressed and go but also. sleep. #it just sucks bc I never follow through on social stuff and I really wanna do more things like that like it's our last semester man #and I now have one of my uni friends who's quite social to help me along but she's already there now so hng. #it sucks tbh like I was chatting to my mum and asking how she ever had the energy to go out loads and she was like idk we just did #where is my energy then!!! why didn't my meds fix that toooo #anyways I'm. not gonna go it's too late so I'm gonna go eat the leftovers of the risotto leonie (whomst I miss a lot) made #read the witcher fic or smth. have a me-night before we gotta work on a presentation tomorrow #I just. I don't regret anything I did in cardiff but man do I wish I'd gone out more I really really wanted to #same for the rest of my bachelor. and it's honestly so fucking scary that I'm gonna be done soon #also hopefully no one is reading anymore but I am kinda proud of the results I got in Cardiff and one of my profs there sent me #a rly nice email. honestly I just love academics I know it's fucking useless and the earth is dying and people are too and here we are #staring at old books and saying stuff about them. but it just feels like this is Right for me yknow #it's about the being useless™ #anyways. ily all. life is weird (but I'm obvs very happy and grateful to be where I am and ik I'm lucky too)