#/ and this is something i think of a lot since it's very fitting for ferdiad except for the 'hundreds of other times' because

[caemthe]

i'll tell you when you get your soft, italicized, "Oh."

    the first meeting

life is normal. it's scripted. it's functional. then one day, you meet them, and... Oh. you fix your posture, you're a little nervous, and it's totally possible you're just projecting -- but this could be something. and the only thing that makes this different from the hundreds of other times you had that exact same thought only to be disappointed is... this is the time that counts. things change. you were looking for someone whose very existence re-contextualized yours. which is not to say that you were incomplete, but... aren't we all? isn't that the essence of being a being who changes? and what completes us if not the love of something or someone beyond us? sure it's still new, and anything could happen from here, but there's something in your shared brain chemistry that makes it feel like good things are in motion. how exciting!

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#ferdia. ° ( saber. ) #/ had to dig up my teen ferdiad icons because his and cú's first meeting happened they were young teens #/ and this is something i think of a lot since it's very fitting for ferdiad except for the 'hundreds of other times' because #/ ferdiad was this young fir dommann (not fae divinity. human or monster. but beings that slowly disappeared over time) that was trying his #/ best to fit in human society. and he was so careful about it and his wish to be accepted that he never got to be just himself or open up #/ to others which in turn meant no one got to really know him. he was just this tall and 'stoic' boy. scathach's best student which #/ put him a position of leadership even though that wasn't what he wanted. it only made the distance between him and his peers grow #/ and he hated it. his own thoughts held him back a lot… so you can imagine how he felt when this wild little thing suddenly showed up in #/ dunscaith demanding to see the terrifying warrior witch and telling everyone that he would be the best student and warrior there #/ this wild little fire that doesn't fit (nor tries to) the image of a warrior of their times everyone tries to pursue. this boy who makes h #/ his own path. who has the skill and strength to back up his words and is so very unapologetic about being himself #/ so how was he supposed to not fall in love with the little sun that shone so brightly in the land of shadows? #/ fer's love and admiration for cú used to be so cute. so how twisted and painful they become (as an avenger) is heartbreaking #/ to summarize: yeah ferdiad kind of is a hopeless romantic... DON'T JUDGE HIM!