#^^ censored bc this is a relatively private post no idc that i'm posting it publicly for my modest following ajfdlkajfdls

[bubmyg]

u know i’ve talked at nauseam before abt how yoongi is my artist for life, how much his music means to me, etc etc so each year that passes it feels a bit redundant to reiterate it again and again but i think today being my four years of being a fan of yoongi (not to. pontificate about twitter words fjdksfd but fan feels more appropriate than stan in this instance idk) feels very. full? fourish years ago today i was sitting in the dining hall furtherest from the dorm i didn’t want to return to at all in general let alone in subzereo temperatures crying after having heard the entirety of the agust d mixtape for the first time even after “stanning” bts since october of 2017. today in 2022 i potted two new plants, made myself some hot chocolate, felt like a person in my own skin for the majority of the day. 

four years isn’t a super significant number. im probably a lil bit lame bc i track these things at all but shrug emoji idrc i don’t think lmao. a bit lamer to say it doesn’t feel like four years bc yoongi’s art has become such an integral part of my being that it just feels like it’s always been there. like im genuinely not trying to sound pretentious, being a fan of yoongi has always felt a lil different to me, if only in the way i hold his music super dear and close to me. i’m fairly confident i’m always going to. if tumblr’s search function actually worked i’m sure u could find this exact sentiment a thousand times on my blog: i’m not joking when i say yoongi is my artist for life lmao (i also want to bite him. it’s called duality—)

anyway. cheers to four years of me making a fool of myself publicly on this blog w how much i love my silly little favorite celebrity. cheers to all the other times i’ve privately looked to one of my inspirations for comfort. can’t wait to see what u do next bubs <33

#don't mind meeeeee #i put on the j/ink/ook vers of so far away while i wrote this #bad idea! #^^ censored bc this is a relatively private post no idc that i'm posting it publicly for my modest following ajfdlkajfdls #ANYWAY! do not click read more if u do not wish to see me be sappy on main #oh like. maybe don't rb fajdakfjdslkf #idk why u would but some ppl just. do things.