#(good morning 😪 I woke up to that video)

[sunstudiesnshines]

Day 11/100 days of productivity

Today was a quiet and calm day. I thought a lot. About a lot of things. I woke up this morning relising that I had snoozed my alarm which resulted in me waking up an hour later than I was supposed to. I didn't have anything particularly planned but it would've given me extra time to workout.

Anyway, I did some math and physics and then played tennis with my brother. Came back, drew for some time while listening to simonsquared's videos on self improvement. It tough me a lot and just made me feel better. I then continued writing this story that I had written in school. (I'll maybe post a link soon!) And then tuition foe three hours (boring)😪 I came back hoping to do some more homework but I was too tired and was doomscrolling that made me realise that I probably needed a break so i read the goldfinch for sometime (page 85) watched some TV, ate sinner and now its sleep time.

Stuff I need to work on ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

Planning

Social media control

Doing to stuff I say I'll do

Good night <3

[lpfreakification]

Tough day but survived 😪

Woke up at 12:50 PM. Had some leftover pizza from yesterday. I went back to bed until 3 something. I showered as quick as I could + left the house at 3:57. I texted the managers that I was gonna be late.

When I got there, I couldn't hold myself together. The look on my face says most. I was moving slowly + couldn't speak up. At least on the phone, I can still fake it with my voice. I felt like my body was gonna give. Like pulling apart two strong magnets. I tried to pull myself together for one customer. I got a bad call from a customer later. Not even half an hour later,... I broke down. I dont blame the customer's fault at all. It was my inability to hold it together. I went to the bathroom to cry it out. It was a short cry, thankfully.

Afterwards, I returned to the front. They offered me a chance to go home. I didnt want to or else I would felt worse about myself + would end to beating myself up. I said I would do as much as I can to see what happens. That idea in mind (+ 2.5 cups of Mountain Dew) later, I was feeling so much better! Almost euphoric. I was so happy not to feel like crap when I entered. The rest of the shift was slow + calm. Despite not making much tip, I was content with the face of redemption. As much as I wanted to keep drinking Mountain Dew, 2.5 was enough. If I drank another, who knows how I'll sleep 😅

I ended the night half an hour early than my usual time. I felt the effects of the Mountain Dew wearing off as I was getting Chipotle. I felt my body getting heavy again like earlier.

Now that I'm home + had some Chipotle, I'm enjoying myself with cat videos again.

The best part of this hard day was how I went from my depression face to my "That's the Perla we know!" face X)

I kept thanking my managers for the patience they had with me today. I'm glad I didnt go home. Work, being on my feet, + Mountain Dew helped.

I'll call the pharmacy again tomorrow. My parents will also be back in the morning. That will be reassuring for me bcuz theyre bound to check up on me (aka a good wake up call). I'll think about how I'll survive work again (but ill be leaving early this time bcuz I closed last week).

What a day @A@

Yep!

#life