#(it goes w/o saying but i don't assume ships etc etc etc all stuff w/ any henrys will be platonic unless we decide to ship etc etc)

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I mentioned this before, but my portrayal of William is predominantly based on the games, although I take some minor inspiration from the books here and there (this may or may not also extend to the movie when it comes out). Regarding that inspiration, I'd like to discuss my take on this quote from Silv.er Eyes:

❝ A search of his house found a room crammed with boxes of mechanical parts and a musty yellow rabbit suit as well as stacks of journals full of raving paranoia, passages about Henry that ranged from wild jealousy to near worship. ❞

Well, I think it goes without saying that my William would not write about Henry in journals (although he certainly keeps obsessive notes about his work, but not necessarily incriminating). Still, I think this is fairly accurate to how William views Henry. I joke a lot about Henry being his "bestie he hates <3" but it's not that simple. His feelings also evolve over time. Henry is something of an idol to William when he meets him—he has the very skills William aspires to have as well. Of course, a man with an ego like William's can only look up to someone so much. In the earlier years, the emotions are balanced well—William looks up to Henry and views him as a friend, plus the idolizing inspires him to work harder. To William, it's totally possible to admire someone, care about them, and also want to be better than them. The first major sting is Henry buying out William's floundering business. Henry sees it as the best option—the alternative was watching William's business fail entirely. William views it as pity, fully convinced he could have handled it himself. From here forward, he only grows more and more resentful. Despite this, it's a long time before William truly, wholly paints Henry as his enemy and becomes paranoid that these feelings are mutual. Surprisingly (or not), this is after he's killed Charlie, and in the midst of his own children's deaths. William never quite fully stops caring for Henry in his own way, but William's affection has never protected anyone from him. Caring won't stop him from being horrifically cruel, and it won't get rid of a deep-seated bitterness that tinges every thought he has about the man.

#˖ ✧ headcanon » ( the demon to his demons ) #me taking this post so so so seriously like i wasn't laughing in my head at this quote #me: he has super complex feelings toward henry #also me: lmao gay #(it goes w/o saying but i don't assume ships etc etc etc all stuff w/ any henrys will be platonic unless we decide to ship etc etc) #anyway something something william destroys every good thing in his life because he's a egotistical control freak #man has a good family and a good best friend and a potentially good business and his own actions destroy it all #i am sad and it's not for william. sad for every person who ever had to be around him. but especially the ones who /cared/ abt him. #caring abt this man is either a death wish or a recipe for ending up traumatized (or both) #okay so maybe i did take this post rlly seriously whoops