#- that I was ordering a really meaty chicken sandwich with gravy and now I've woken up to the fact I only have old Lomein to eat🫠

[sensitivegoblin]

I'm having a bad day cus I slept all day and no one's on a schedule here so autistically speaking I'm fucked up

Vent below

#I'm feeling a lot of sad feelings #I had a really good dream (I keep having this dream of a much more exciting life so they're good and bad dreams) - #- that I was ordering a really meaty chicken sandwich with gravy and now I've woken up to the fact I only have old Lomein to eat🫠 #that's not my biggest problem regarding dreams but it's getting under my skin #now I'm hungry and it's too late for food #my sister keeps being like 'oh get a shower!!!' but she's made it fuckin impossible #she freaks out if the shower isn't pristine like nobody was ever in there #and with my chronic pain it's really really really hard to do all of her shitty lil extra rules #I wish I was dead honestly I'm so tired of this and I'm tired all the time #I need to take my pills but what's the point #nothing is ever gonna get better..... #for 24 years I've been sad all the time with no explanation #I wish I could kill myself now honestly why am I such a pussy #I'm so cooped up in this house too #my dad had a set schedule so I could look forward to getting out at least once a week #now I'm just rotting in the basement 24/7 cus my sleep is off and I never get to go anywhere fun #I hate my life so much :( #I don't see the point in staying alive but I'm so fucking scared of failing