#AND I have to deal w/ shitty fucking allergies on top of that because my mom SUCKS and I didn't think to grad the medicine when I was

[rainbow-sparks]

I saw Jay's playthrough of Sally Face today and it made me remember how much I love this game, so I drew Sal :))!!

#seriously I just ahafgz I'm going to be so annoying about this game now I'm sorry (lying) #(everytime I say/read/etc the word seriously I read it in Ocean's voice when she's singing What The World Needs omfg) #his hair looks like that because........uhmm #cute :33 but also I just..can't draw straight hair :// #in pigtails specifically. idk why it just two ponytails so I don't know WHY I can't... #my dad is saying I HAVE to go to school or he won't pay the wifi bill uhmm apparently it 2 months behind?? uhh yeah...? oof guess I'll #fucking kms instead because if I have to be at that DAMN HIGHSCHOOL AGAIN #I am only a freshman and I already wanna bash my head into the desk #MY GYM TEACHER DIDN'T EVEN KNOW MY FUCKING NAME #AND I have to deal w/ shitty fucking allergies on top of that because my mom SUCKS and I didn't think to grad the medicine when I was #leaving yesterday morning mostly cause her BITCH ASS EX WAS THERE IN THE LIVING ROOM (that's connected to the kitchen; where the medicine #was) because she can't kick him out and she has work so she need him there anyway because free babysitting because she had this stupid #fucking kid with him 4 years ago :// #what am I talking about??? #sorry for ranting babe hehe <3 back to being a silly little guy ^^!! #so my friend wants me to play D&D with her and her other friend (idk who they are?? she never told me their name) #so that's cool :) #anyway I listened to Sanity Falls again I fucking love those songs god Idk y I stopped listening to these what was wrong w/ me damn :DDD!!! #gonna queue a few post so they go up while I'm either asleep or at school #probably school cause my dad said if I'm asleep he'll beat me awake :/ so yeah...not new whatever :/ #can't even complain; cause according to my parents it isn't abuse to hit you're CHILD and they had it worse so stfu and I hate you' like #WTF WAS THAT? BRO?? ughh like okay yeha I get it I've been out for a bit but like...really? has Hitting use worked EVER? no? THEN WHY ARE #THEY STILL DOING IT??........ugghhh fuck #night dude :p #omfg I ranted to much I forgot to tag #sally face #sal fisher #sally face sal

[vermintube]

🖊 val!!

OH HELL YEAH 

ok so im gonna go ahead and uhh warn in advance 

vals backstory / ongoing story is mainly consistent of psychological horror / horror in general so there will be references to gore / violence in here but ill try to keep it concise 

that being said this is pretty long so ill put it under the cut!

so basically hes a very weird guy like he used to be very anxious and painfully bad with others because of the fear of being judged/harmed/etc and a looming paranoia that he’s always had, hes very neurotic and hard to understand most of the time because of this 

ever since he lost his eye, hes .. not been like that. its like it changed smth in him and now hes just angry / has a super big head about himself because (spoiler for the beginning of his story but) he killed the person who took out his eye because they were trying to kill him as well, and ever since then he realized hes not as wimpy as he thought he was 

not much more i can say w/o spoiling but that sort of is what kicks off his entire story

hes friends with cain and cain can testify that hes not .. AS weird and high-energy/high-maintenance when they’re just chilling but if val starts freaking out its hard to deal with, but other than that hes just kind of there 

he has a really weird view on himself because of his father being a demon , he’s an obligate carnivore because of that (his father consumed only souls & other people) so val could very well die if he stopped consuming any sort of meat at all (including shitty meat like taco bell meat or whatever it can be anything as long as its meat) 

that being said; he’s really, really hard to kill. hes not immortal like his father was considering that his mother was just a regular jackal, but he is very hard to kill like anything that would normally kill someone else takes way more effort to kill him. the only surefire way is fire. 

[ tw for skin disorders / etc stuff like that ] and the reason he has bandages on his ARMS (not his legs) is because he chews up the fur/skin out of anxiety/nerves a lot i kind of based it on my own past with dermatophagia dialed up to the extreme as well as overgrooming behavior in canines , and the bandages on his ankle covers up where he scratches at it - hes usually not seen without them becuase hes self conscious hence why i made them  non-optional

and when it comes to the mask ive given him as of late, well

theres nothing PHYSICALLY wrong with his face, aside from his big and kind of fucked up teeth and his weird tongue which isnt really even the majority of what he hates,  he just strongly dislikes the lower half of his face and he also feels that wearing a mask kind of ‘takes away’ any identity he has, he doesn’t want people to connect with him upon first glance, it makes him very uncomfortable to know that people Know him so he takes steps to prevent that feeling

also the ‘goat leg’ version that i draw him sometimes isnt canonical its just how he ‘views’ himself if it makes sense

also when it comes to weapons: he literally only ever uses a god damn crowbar or a bat thats it like he CAN use anything but he prefers melee weapons 

a lot of parts of his design are symbolic since he did start out being my fursona (he still is hes just not ENTIRELY based off of me anymore  hes got his own story and personality going on as well so i guess hes more of a mascot but im still really attached to him in a personal way) 

also for some random facts bc why not

> he usually bites his claws down to stubs but he paints them black to try to deter that. it doesnt work

> he likes wearing tank tops a lot as u can probably tell by how i draw him

> he almost always has something covering the stitches on his neck bc they come from a really bad time he had and he doesnt want to get questions about it

> same with his bandages but if you ask about him he’ll just like. idk turn you into soup or something he gets annoyed really badly if ppl ask him about that. its the rudest thing u can ask him 

> his tongue stitches are purely cosmetic he doesnt even know why he got them bc it was a gross experience anyway

> his tail is super long 

> hes almost always on a blasphemous amount of caffeine he has caffeine pills in his bag at any given time along with allergy pills 

> his entire body is always sore because hes really fatigued and he goes apeshit a lot so thats gonna take a toll

> “I CANNT FUCKJIGNBG G   DO THIS IM SO FUCKING ANGRY” [ 5 minutes later ] “i am a new man”

> he will punch someone into mash potato at a moments notice but he will never hurt an animal and if he sees someone about to hurt like a little cat or dog or something he will beat them to a pulp 

> I HAVE A PLAYLIST FOR HIM HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

> he really likes swimming but he hates being in any state of undress around others so catch him getting into the pool with skinny jeans and combat boots on fuck it

> dont… touch him unless he says its ok. hes like insanely jumpy and it makes him tense up to the point of hurting its just like dude get ur paws off me ill pee on you and die … 

> that being said hes also immensely touchstarved he wants a hug but only from the 3.5 people he already knows :/ 

#THANKS FOR ASKING I HAVE A LOT TO SAY ABOUT THIS DUMB FURRY #val #karamatsu-boy

[noonslullabies]

Fuck allergies

((noon complains loudly while not getting read more on this fucking app))

...

Mine decided to show up the one week i forgot the nasal spray.

My top teeth, while being severely effected by the chronic pain, act the fuck up whenever the Earth sneezes into the next season.

Ok, more gums, but it still counts if the tooth acts up.

I am going to get some drastic dental work soon, but this couldve all been avoided if any medical professional question why the 10 year old suddenly has numerous abscessed teeth and in need of root canals.

But no. It was my fault, all my fault.

Because how was I supposed to know I was in so much pain that it caused my top row of teeth to rot, but no, I was lazy. Stop complaining, you don't know what real pain is like. When the body has badshit going down, the teeth react as means of warning, so HA I AM NOT A FUCKING LIAR.

*slams head against wall*

If i dont reply back, my mouth hurts, and my government thinks I shouldnt have my pain medicine because I am drug addict. *facepalm*

God or the univeral consciousness of message bottles, make pot legal or allow us chronically ill to have some for reasonable price because reality sucks when you can't move. Much less think, hold a normal conversation, try to meet people with common interests, tell your friends youve avoided for two years the reason why you left, or having a fucking future & not having to deal with ptsd induced flashbacks because i am not 10 anymore ....

Well, if I feel this shitty, my period is coming, it only felt like a few days break from hell... oh wait, it was.

((I have a primary doc who diagnosed the illness yet cannot confirm because she cant order for the tests, just the specialist I saw several years ago, so unofficial endowarrior. Except ma couldve had it, but her gyno doc, who pray never sees me again or i will claw her eyes out because shes half the reason I dont remember 2012, didnt do her job & my ma's sister has it, so guess all the cousins are carriers while others unknowingly have it thinking they are just weak for being in fucking never ending hell pain. ...if that family wasnt so toxic, I could help, but I am prolly the winner that has it while the rest get to carry whatever the fuck gene is that causes this fucking never ending nightmare))

*curls up into ball w cat* Roo is rootiful.

#noons personal #noon types #noon talks about their illnesses #endowarrior #because fuck it I use it on instagram I sure as hell using it here