#And as an earth sign I'm known for consistency and stability

[the-cooler-king]

tbh this is what I love about being medicated that I was telling my doctor about yesterday. Sometimes I get a thought that gets stuck in my head - I can almost always step back and go "whoa betsy.... don't have time for that" / "not a productive thought, try again" and on the rare occasions that I can't dispell the thought, I can continue to think it through. Like I wanted to cry on my way home. Now I'm just determined to do better for myself. The curtain drops but there is no audience.

#I'm just having a rough time and I'm trying to move forward #I'm realizing that my s/o is having a very hard time that he is making worse for himself and I can't do anything for him #I feel like he thinks he isn't worth it #Once again he teaches me so much about myself because it's hurtful that he's pushing me away #And it's something I've also done in the past... now I understand why no one has ever stayed #Not in a sad sack way but in a... that makes sense kinda way #I want to be here for him but I don't want to suffocate him with that. Maybe I'll tell him that tomorrow #I'm here for him. Always. But... if he doesn't think he deserves that then I can't change his mind #As an air sign it's so easy to be suffocated and stifled by the ppl around you #And as an earth sign I'm known for consistency and stability #So I'm still here. Just behind the curtains. I can't keep feeling like a burden to him even if it's just a thought in my head and not real #I liked being wanted. I almost thought he cared. But I know better. As nanami once said... I know where those feelings lead