#I just don't want to do it wrong! I'm haunted by social fuckups daily

[llycaons]

im like the doppelganger in annihilation because when confronted with a living human I could never possibly understand I also imitate their mannerisms and behaviors

#if this is wrong please don't correct me I just had a moment of deep connection with that radiation being #I try sooo hard to do exactly what the people around me are doing so I don't stick out #I just don't want to do it wrong! I'm haunted by social fuckups daily #the others were all having convos like 'you know in middle school when you had a boyfriend and you would text him like let's hug today!' #and the other girl is like omg you poor thing (to the girl who has a bf) you had your first kiss at 18! #and 'you know how you screenshot cute things your crush sends you?" #absolutely out of my depth here lol I was universally reviled as a teenager tolerated at best #and I didn't have a phone until college....in middle school even my parents didn't have phones #well it sounds like they're having fun but couldn't be me #not to sound incredibly bitter but being normal would have been nice #even though I know 'normal' doesn't rly mean what like...you're taught it means #like conventionally attractive nt able-bodied cishet with a degree/job isn't any more 'normal' than anyone who isn't those things #but that's not what it feels like! #well at least they were polite about it when I said no bf and just moved on. and my family time tonight was nice #cor.txt