#I shouldn't be asked to function like a decent human when Hongjoong is acting out

[hongthoven]

PLEASE. TELL ME PLEASE THAT YOU’VE SEEN THE HONGJOONG VLOG. I NEED TO SCREAM. HIS BARE FACE BEAUTY, HIS DRIVING !!!!!, HIM IN THE STUDIO, HIM WORKING OUT. GOD IM SO INSANE.

Girl.

Picture this, I was getting ready to go out and drive for an hour to visit my parents when the vlog came out and I almost swallowed my lipstick out of absolute shock!??

WHERE TO BEGIN? WHAT TO SAY?

At first I thought it was a holiday vlog from his pov and I was like "Oh hell no I am NOT going through this again???" (while still proceeding to play the vlog because who am I if not his bitch? truly).

But nothing could have possibly prepared me for ALL OF THIS?

The bareface? Who looks THIS good first thing in the morning? This is ridiculous. For real ???

When he's picking out his clothes for the day and he just stands there in a black tank top like???? When I tell you I felt like a victorian man seeing ankles for the first time???? These shoulders. Those arms. Sir. SIR. I AM. ASKING. RESPECTFULLY.

He knows exactly what he's doing.

When he puts on that polo shirt and wonders why it shrank so bad? My love. Honey. Sweetie. Absolute love of my life. I don't think that shirt shrank. I think WE MUST CLOSE THE FUCKING GYMS.

The driving got me collapsing to the floor. Literally. I just slipped from my couch and sat on the floor from the moment he was behind the wheel. Had to pause to send hysterical vocal messages to my best friends and scream about it. Thank god they KNOW how much I was dreading the day I would see Hongjoong driving.

It was quite the experience. Soul left body. I crumbled.

Reverse parking? Singing while parking? Looking THIS hot while driving? My brain spiraled so quickly it got me spinning.

He is insane.

Then off to the studio we go?? I think us pyeongies collectively have that fantasy about getting railed into Hongjoong's studio and I can't even tell how many times I have pictured myself on that couch behind him. So to see him have a casual nap there? I was HOWLING AT THE FUCKING MOON IN BROAD DAYLIGHT.

The part when he's doing the voiceover cause the audio was fucked up-- he's so very dear to me. So very dear. He's the most perfect man to ever walk this Earth and I can't believe I got lucky enough to be born in his Era. Will forever be thankful.

I love him. so. fucking. much.

We truly are his sugar babies because we get SPOILED every damn week with this man. It was a tough job sitting in front of my parents while reminiscing every part of this vlog. I definitely dissociated half of the time.

I need to see it again. The dopamine it brought me was fucking crazy too? He gave me the strength to carry on and to actually do things which is precisely why he is my role model (as well as a soulmate). I could go on and on and on about how much and why I love this man but I'll just end this here. I feel so lucky to have him as the most perfect human to look up to.

Now gonna try not to think too much of the work-out shots and just---- yeah that man knew what he was doing. "this is a good angle right?" my brother in Christ------ I just-----

I may need a couple hours to myself to deal with this.

#this vlog changed me entirely #I will never be the same again #never recover #never move on #I shouldn't be asked to function like a decent human when Hongjoong is acting out #he's the absolute LOVE OF MY ENTIRE LIFE #Kim Hongjoong #Hongjoong #Ateez #moots♥ #Nat♥