#I truly didn't think jackie would be the first because of shauna but now like sure okay they made that work

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I remembered to send the ask to your writing blog this time!

Okay, here’s my idea for Shauna: she and reader aren’t dating yet, just best friends (sorry Jackie) and reader doesn’t know what to get her for Christmas. Then Shauna accidentally leaves her journal at their house, and they read it to try to get an idea for her gift. But instead they find all her entries about how she’s in love with reader. Shauna finds out and gets really mad, but she’s actually just embarrassed and scared that she ruined their friendship. But then reader kisses her and tells her they love her too. Turns out the perfect Christmas gift for Shauna was a girlfriend

Christmas Confessions

Shauna shipman x reader

AN: My last Yellowjackets Christmas fic! And of course my lovely tumblr wife requested it😘. I made the reader and Shauna besties and didn’t want to try and include Jackie somehow so I just don’t mention her. Shauna’s text is in green. And I put like the journal flashback things are in italics And the word count is I think the biggest at almost 1.8k. Also now that my Christmas things are done I’ll totally take requests. I’ll take requests about anyone that I have written for so far.

You and Shauna have been best friends since kindergarten. You have always been inseparable. Always having sleepovers together even joining the soccer team in grade 9. Everyone at school knows about you too and how much you care for one another.

One time in grade 2 a few of the boys were making fun of you and pushed you and that was the first time Shauna punched someone for you. That was when you first realized how much you would do for each other. Sure, Shauna got in trouble but it was grade 2 so she didn’t catch that much slack.

After that point no one messed with either of you. People were scared of Shauna and they were scared of what Shauna would do if they hurt you. And it was like that even in highschool.

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December 12, 1996

You and Shauna are both in your senior year now. She came over for her weekly sleepover. The two of you were hanging out like you normally do. Watching a movie, listening to music, and sometimes just laying there together.

That was the thing you loved about Shauna; the silences were never awkward. You could lay there and talk or just sit. Sometimes Shauna would write in her journal while you did homework.

 You start to think she loves that journal more than you. She always had it around. You learned early that she is very private about it. So you don’t ask to read it anymore. She’s your best friends but she can keep her thoughts and feelings private if she truly wants to.

Shauna had already left after having dinner with your family. Her mom had been in a rush to go somewhere. You go back into your room and that’s when you notice Shauna's journal sitting right on your bed. She must have forgotten it because she was rushing. 

You move it off your bed and place it on your nightstand. You will give it to her at school on Monday you think to yourself as you lay down on your bed. An hour passes every so often you glance over at the journal. 

You realize you still need ideas for what to get Shauna for Christmas. You look over at the journal and grab it. You get a good idea. You might as well take a little look to find possible gift ideas. It couldn't possibly hurt, right?

The cover has her name printed neatly with a pen. For a second you hesitate hoping nothing too personal is in her journal. It will only be for a few minutes you say to yourself. That reassures you and you flip open the first page.

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June 28 1996. You knew Shauna got a new journal at the end of grade 11, because you two found it at the mall together. You picked it up and showed it to her.

“Look Shaunie, it's green. Don’t you need a new one?” You said to her. Shauna ended up buying it. What you didn't notice back then was how Shauna looked at you that day or any day really.

The entry is pretty normal. It talks about your guys mall trip. And how you guys got ice cream. You smile to yourself as you remember how much fun you had with her. It talks about how you got ice cream all over your face and Shauna had to get a napkin and wipe it off.You finally notice how she talks about you. Sure you're close and give each other compliments but this feels different. You shrug it off and keep searching.

The next few entries are all in the summer. Mostly talking about the family vacation she went on .You flip to another entry.

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August 5 1996. You and Shauna were at her house. It explains what you guys did that day. Shauna had gotten a new lip gloss for her birthday and you both were trying it out. Shauna put it on first, rubbing her lips together. She writes about how you put it on as well. You remember how much you liked the lipgloss. The lovely pink shine looked great on your lips. And Shauna definitely thought so too. In fact she goes into great detail about how much she did like it.

You pause a confused look on your face. The sudden realization hits you hard. How did you not notice? You keep reading trying to confirm if you're not going crazy. You blush as you read the last sentence. 

“I wanted to kiss them so badly.” Shauna writes with a few pink hearts around your name. You suddenly feel really guilty but also relieved. You have known you like Shauna for a while. But you have been too scared to confess. How could you ruin your relationship with her like that?

You have so many conflicting feelings. You're happy she likes you back, but nervous as to how she would respond about you snooping around in her private journal.

At this point you can't stop reading them. Each one is a different day. Each entry delves into just how big of a crush Shauna truly has. 

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September 25 1996.

This one was around your first few weeks of grade 12. You and Shauna were in the same English Lit class. You went over to study with her. It was a fun night. but clearly Shauna saw it differently. She spent a good paragraph talking about your silly jokes and describing just how much she loves your laugh.

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October 31 1996

The two of you went to Lottie's annual halloween party. Of course dressed in matching costumes. You spent a long time finding a cute costume that would match with one another. The entry sounds pretty normal except for Shauna’s clear jealousy to you playing spin the bottle with the other girls. You ended up having to kiss Natalie. It was all for fun and games but clearly Shauna didn’t think so. You read it over and Shauna sounds angry.

“It should have been me kissing them.” She finishes off the entry with that angrily scribbled in pen.

The next few entries are about the same. You feel bad for reading all her personal thoughts and feelings. But you can’t seem to stop yourself from reading. You spend 2 hours reading all of the entries. You lay in your bed contemplating what you should do?

Give it back to her?

Confront her?

Keep her in the dark?

You run through all the ideas and scenarios in your head. Your anxiety builds and builds. You decide to sleep on it, you're exhausted from all the thoughts of what could happen.

You wake up on Sunday morning rubbing your eyes as you look over and see her journal staring back at you. You get up and get dressed, determined to tell her.

Your mom went out to do some Christmas shopping and you left her journal open on your bed.

You hear a shape knock on your door. You walk over to the front door and open it to a slightly flushed Shauna. She’s dressed in her iconic flannel .

“Uh,hi, sorry for showing up unannounced but I-uh left my  journal here last night.” She is clearly nervous that you might have read it .

“Oh! Right, come in , it’s uh in my room.” You say ushering her in, your face heating up as your heart pounds.

You bring her into your room forgetting that you left her journal open on your bed. She walks in after you as you quickly grab it, closing it and passing it to her.

“Did you read it?” She says half nervous half accusatory. You stumble over your words as all your thoughts slip from your mind.

“You did read it ! You know it’s private!” She yells pacing around your bedroom. You try to jump into it to try and defend yourself but she’s not having any of it.

Shauna never yells at you and this version of her scares you. 

“Shauna plea-“ You try to say but she cuts you off to mad to listen. “You know how I feel about you don’t you? You know how I feel about you ?” She says her voice quiets a bit. 

“I can’t believe you would do this!” She starts yelling again. She sounds almost disappointed and it makes you feel worse. But you have to tell her.

You start tuning her out as you work up the courage She goes on about how mad she is. But you're not listening anymore. You step closer to her. She stops noticing the look on your face.

“What?” She starts to say before you quickly cut her off. You lean forward cupping her face and pulling her into a passionate kiss.

Her breath hitches and she gasps in shock. You pull back a little, noses touching. “Is this ok?” You say a hushed whisper. Shauna nods and smiles wrapping her arms around your waist, pulling you into another kiss this time.

You both end up on your bed, Shauna's journal discarded on the floor. As you too enjoy your first kiss together. Shauna’s hands behind your neck as you both make out. 

Shauna lays down with you and you smile . “I love you too. You know ?” You say as Shauna blushes remembering that you read all the things she said about you.

“Did you actually read like everything?” Shauna says quietly as she plays with the hem of your pants. You blush too a little embarrassed. “Yeah uh I did , funny enough I was trying to find an idea for a Christmas present.” You say as Shauna’s embarrassment slowly disappears.

“That stuff I wrote was a little uh well you know.” Shauna says turning shy again. “It was really cute Shaunie.” You say with a little smirk. She groans and covers her face. “Especially when you said that you wanted to fight Natalie during halloween.” You say giggling a little at Shauna’s flustered face. 

“I also heard all about how you love when I wear this shirt.” You say sitting up a little to give her a full look. Her eyes widen a little and she somehow blushes more red. 

“That's mean.” She whines but you both know now that she is loving this. She eyes you up and down and pulls you in for another kiss. “I bought you that shirt for your birthday.” 

“I know silly you went on and on about it.” You tease as you pull her down with you and pull her into another long kiss.

“You know what? It turns out I got you what you wanted for Christmas.”

“Really what was it?”

“Me.” 

#yellowjackets x reader #yellowjackets christmas #Shauna shipman #shauna shipman x reader

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If jeff read her diary and always knew about the baby then that makes me really side-eye him tbh, since Shauna felt pressured by him to have Callie even though she never wanted to go through the trauma of birth again and if he knew that but pressured her anyway.. what the fuck Jeff? I can forgive murder and cannibalism but somehow that feels more malicious idk lmao (was gonna respond directly to your post but I'm too shy lol but wanted to agree and add)

no I absolutely agree

the murder and cannibalism, despite how intense and by choice it becomes, is still in the name of survival. if they never turn to cannibalism and they only ever wait for death, then none of them would survive because they wouldn't all be strong enough to actually make the food if they only ever waited without action (they get compared to the andes crash a few times by outsiders but the truth is that was 2 months and those that died were destined to die or put out of misery and is a totally different problem than 19 months where everyone who survives is otherwise perfectly fine and healthy aside from ben missing a leg)

jeff having read shauna's journals is like...first of all red flag obviously, but he still only knows the outside perspective. he wasn't there, he will never understand, and i don't think shauna wrote in detail how much of the survival was by choice or even about the wilderness because when callie and jeff talk about what's wrong with shauna, jeff skips directly to "well she lost a baby" and clearly really doesn't understand just how much she went through despite having read the journals. jeff as a character is like....okay to me mostly just because he is...kind of becoming an exemplar of society the same way jackie was before she died. he thinks that yes his wife has ptsd and clearly has unresolved problems and trauma, but up until the cops show him pictures of adam's body, he very obviously still just thinks shauna is....for lack of a better word normal. and he thinks it's normal to have a family and want a family and shauna was never any good at sticking to her own wants unless she's alone. jeff is very rapidly being forced to reconcile his image of shauna (and in turn callie and their entire family and life up to now) because he doesn't know shauna at all. and before now, he didn't even think that was a possibility

i honestly think he genuinely just thought shauna was Totally Fine aside from like...maybe she gets sad and has nightmares and doesn't talk a lot before the affair, before adam's death & cover-up, before the cops, before callie got involved. i'm not on his side at all and in fact think he's either going to die (with the current direction it will probably be some stupid thing that he dies to protect or save shauna but i however think it would be him somehow someway getting sacrificed eventually and only then will he truly see shauna for who and what she is and understand just how much of a lie he fell for and for shauna it would be consuming the last part of jackie she still has) or at the most he & shauna will divorce by the end and probably become very estranged and otherwise he'd fade into obscurity to her as just another piece of jackie she's lost

i think jeff truly believes in this image of normalcy and overlooks the symptoms and signs shauna shows because he wants the normalcy to be the truth and to be real. he sees the normalcy that jackie represented in the wilderness and died trying to standby and uphold and not the wilderness that took her place and consumed shauna in those 19 months, and jeff probably thinks that's what shauna wants; to be normal and pretend it wasn't that bad ever. which is what she wants when she marries him, even if subconsciously she's still just clinging to jackie through him. i think jeff wanted callie because he wanted a kid and thought in maybe some fucked up way that shauna having another kid who was statistically way more likely not to die would "fix" the broken parts, and shauna gave in and had the kid because she genuinely wanted him to be right but even when callie survives it doesn't work because it was never going to work

#yellowjackets #jeff sadecki #shauna shipman #shauna sadecki #I THINK THAT UM shauna will resent or simply come to terms that she never loved jeff #but in turn will learn to accept and love callie #and callie will become part of the wilderness in a way #at first because she wants to understand her mom and maybe understand herself too because she thinks that whatever shauna is going through #is going to or is happening to herself already #and she will fall into the wilderness the same way shauna did as a teen

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Let's Talk about the Yellowjackets #2

Natalie Scartoccio

Her death while it was somewhat poetic, was also pointless. She ended s1 trying to kill herself and being saved at the last moment, all for what? For her to bond with that brainwashed hottie and die for her? In the end of the day, it was suicide. Again, kill any of the survivors, especially one that is with us since the very beginning is not something that should happen in a season 2 finale c'mon. Is the type of character end we see in series finale. We know she was broken even before plane crash but now that we know she was the Antlers Queen I wanted to see more of her in the present, dealing with all that or at least making her death more meaningful to the main plot.

Like I've said in the #1, i think the show will end with them In the wilderness again, so what if her death was the last sacrifice? yes, it could be any of the girls but since she scape death before and felt responsible for her father's,Javi's and Travis deaths, it would be meaningful for her to accept what should have happened in the first hunt. The only other person who could do this sacrifice is Misty since they weren't rescued because of her.

Also until the last moment I thought she was going to get a shoot , like, that brainwashed hottie would shoot Misty and Nat was be in the way to save the person that saved her before. That would be a better choice. Far better choice

I really hope her death isn't a shock value bullshit but damn it feels like one. Because Im so sure that brainwash hottie won't appear next season. So what Nat learn that she already didn't know? What she did this season? For what she sacrifice herself for? The "tell Natalie she was right" thing, that was it? I want all those answers to be solve next season and all the implications of her death, if not...yeah, that was just shock value.

Also. Why the hell she didn't saw Travis?

Lastly, I kinda of wish Natalie was the one and only Antlers Queen.

Ps: I've read that Juliette Lewis wasn't happy with the character so maybe she wanted to get out of the show so the writers needed to end her character but still. ..there's was better ways to do that.

Misty Quigley

Can you please stop murder your bff? Thank you. I find it ironic how she tries so bad to fix things and yet also make things worse. Kinda of Cersei Lannister, if she was smart as Misty.

I'm curious to see how she will react to Natalie's death since she truly cared about her and fought to keep her alive, also ironic, that's how she killed her, trying to save Nat to get shoot.

I'm glad that she has Walter, and he proved to be a real one like Jeff.

Shauna Shipman

She had a nice storyline this season, mostly continuing and finishing some arcs of s1. What I'm really interested for the next season is how she will be annoyed by the fact that she ain't the protagonist, that she was living on others Shadow just as much as she was living on Jackie's shadow. And her search of wanting to be appreciated, and with this she is just like Misty, just not as loud about it. Not much to say about her character, other than what I've already said

I know that we probably will have more than one Antler Queen and if this is the case, i believe Shauna never was one.

#yellowjackets #natalie scatorccio #shauna shipman #misty quigley #jeff sadecki #walter tattersall #jackie