#I wonder if I'll feel as strongly for BSD as I feel for PH <3

[kaus-fangirlis]

I saw your tags and I'm straight up screaming because 1. You realize ss/kk isn't that well-founded! thank you for saying that! and 2. YOU KNOW PANDORA HEARTS AND JACK VESSALIUS, FUCKED UP LOVE OF MY LIFE. Thank you for your existence this makes me so happy I wanna hug you and squish your cheeks.

First of all, thank you for sending a non-BSD fandom-related ask to my sideblog, it helps me keep my main blog @kaus-quietis clean and somewhat organized <3 Second of all, I’ll have you know that HOW COULD I NOT?? Pandora Hearts is my fav manga I’ve read in my teen years!!

I’ll leave more under the cut, not to flood the dash too much <3

By "fav manga of my teen years” I mean, I kinda split my “fandom activity” into “teen years” (whatever that mess was – 19) and “young adulthood years” (20 – present), because I noticed significant changes in my tastes are they crystalized and as I got to know myself better too. This is why I say PH is my fav manga of my teen years, and currently BSD is a competitor for “fav manga of my young adulthood”, together with Tokyo Ghoul. We’ll see! I also created those categories because I realized huge changes in the way I choose my favs (previously it was more like they “chose” me, somehow, randomly / with no apparent rule – this applies to Oz, Vanitas from Kingdom Hearts, Eren from Attack on Titan, Naruto from the Naruto series etc. – , but now I know my stuff and my personality and all, so my choices are very well-grounded and conscious. Or sometimes fate takes your hand and makes you write an essay about who will end up being your fav, dethroning Dazai forever). This is why, surprisingly, Oz is my favourite character from PH, followed by Xerxes Break, but if I would have read PH now, I’m sure, absolutely sure, Break would have been my fav. Either way, the immense amount of tears I shed for Break were foreshadowing that, in a different timeline, he would have been indeed my fav...

My experience with PH was that of reading it month by month, chapter after chapter, with the fandom weeping and shouting and theorizing with no end and there was sooooo much to analyze and so many symbols everywhere. And I cried so much, oh gosh, not to even mention when the entire Eliott arc happened, THOSE MONTHS KJFGNKFD. That manga is a gem, especially in later volumes when the artstyle just BLOOMS, and I watched it bloom before my eyes as years passed. I cannot even describe for how many days I cried nonstop when the manga ended. I was there when we first saw Vanitas waving at Oz, as Oz was leaving... Still, when MochiJun went on with Vanitas no Carte, be it for burn-out or other media, I never caught up with the VnC manga and currently struggle to get into the anime. We’ll see how that goes. It’s very different from the PH feel to me.

Sel, you should check out all the PH stuff I reblogged on this sideblog lol. It’s under my #ph tag. But since this blog was created only in 2017, the majority of my PH fandom activity was on other websites or my long-dead accounts till then, so there are not a lot of posts, ironically. I realize there is a lot of................... Break content because of this distance in time (2017 onwards, because I was already........ 21 or so........................... that means.......... yeah the foreshadowing that he would have been my fav was already materializing gkdfsngf)

#Lav answers #Sel #pandora hearts discussion time yesss #my fav manga forever #I wonder if I'll feel as strongly for BSD as I feel for PH <3 #we will see after the series ends... that determines everything