#I'm gonna make an instagram soon finally so I can keep in touch with irl and internet friends

[agentemo]

I think I worked too hard for too long trying to fix things with my mom and it kept breaking me down the way it always did and now I feel like a shell of a person because it was a waste it was a waste to hollow myself out and show her the viscera I'm made of and keep hoping keep hoping she'll find something beautiful in it someday

strangers love me better

#I'm gonna make an instagram soon finally so I can keep in touch with irl and internet friends #just like there are people I think it would be cool to know me as more than this scared hermit hiding behind Mikey's name lol #im fucking angry that no one ever told me who told purchase admin about my suicidal ideation. i hate the not knowing and that was my first #realization I'm not safe anywhere I am not truly anonymous anywhere #i think it was heather. i think i should ask her. #i think i am angry for the kindness of that treaturous time because things are still treaturous and i do not have a group of friends that #will save me and help me move because there is no where to move to #and now i dont have any friends #DELETE LATER #i am in my feelings cuz i got rejected from a job whatever whatever! #if you made it this far. holy shit. annette will not leave my side. #i worry she is feeling my depression #its nice to always wake up with her next to me