#I'm just a stupid lil kid stuck in a growing body and nobody cares about me anymore cus I'm a stupid adult

[sensitivegoblin]

The depression is really really really bad so I'm sorry if I super ghost y'all

I'm just having a hard time wanting to do anything but rot in bed

#all I wanna do is lay down n sleep :( #5 days until Christmas and my sister still hasn't talked to me :)🔫 #I fucking hate the holidays I'm such a fucking grinchy Scrooge now #Christmas used to be my favorite now it's just a reminder of the family I don't have #I wanna die so badly I keep crying out but nobody's listening #my dad is completely incapable of comforting me emotionally #when someone you depended on most of your life changes....it's the definition of shell shocked #now I'm alone with no one to take care of me I need someone to take care of me #I'm just a stupid lil kid stuck in a growing body and nobody cares about me anymore cus I'm a stupid adult #I wish I wasn't so afraid of death and hell so I could just kill myself #I am convinced that I was supposed to die in highschool cus that's when people would've cared #if I kill my self now it's just a mess and a burden to my family #...I just sent an email to my mother who I haven't talked to since I cut her off #I might get arrested for what I said but if the cops come I'll just spook them so they shoot me #dammit I guess she doesn't have that email anymore i really wanted to lay into her