#Nd somehow my parents don't mind buying him groceries and toiletteries while he spends his money on new tech and guitars

[jejciu]

it's so depressing to see your own phone slowly becoming outdated. another app became too advanced for me to update... this isn't the end of the world obv but ah man

#I already went to look for an affordable new phone and xkom is currently having a sale on xiaomi9 #For 670 instead of 1000 which is really good #And I think I'll go for it... #I might have to do a bunch of commissions or ask my parents to lend me some money so I don't stay with like just spare change in my account #I feel bad now tho. Like I'm spoiled. Even tho obv my phone went thru at least 6 screen repairs and is now way slower and laggy and #I recently even started having problems with missing text messages and not getting notifications and all that which is worrying #But then again maybe it's not really so bad and im just deep down looking for justification to buy a new phone #And like then on the other hand its not like evil for me to want a new phone right...? I've had this one for uhhh 5 years I believe and even #Back when I bought it I was still living off waitress paychecks so it was already super outdated #I've always been jealous of people who can take good quality pictures on their phones But also that is not a necessity obviously either #Idk. I'm so lost jfc. I have enough to buy it in my bank account rn #Oh but hey on the other hand there's only 2 weeks left until next paycheck so I should be fine #Maybe I could take emergency commissions too so I have enough money for bus and food and all that stupid daily stuff #But then again maybe I just shouldn't buy it at all. Rn I don't have any emergency expenses or anything but that might change v suddenly #I don't fucking know........... God how the fuck am i working almost every day and still have so little #Maybe I should just go back to living off my parents #To have them buy me everything like my brother does #He makes twice as much money as I and brags about it constantly #Nd somehow my parents don't mind buying him groceries and toiletteries while he spends his money on new tech and guitars #I don't fucking know it's so frustrating #Some of my unemployed friends even have way better phones and clothes than I... Really makes me think what the fuck am i doing wrong #Jfc ok that was a long ass rant I feel so fucking conflicted and sad lol sorry if u read all of this.. #maurycy talks