#THE TEARS IN HAKSAN'S EYES WHEN HE REALLY MAKES UP HIS MIND ABOUT WHAT'S HE GOING TO DO

[ettelwenailinon]

'Today is the day someone was brought into this world, while another namelessly left it. I'm talking about my birth mother. I hear she passed away even before having a sip of the soup for mothers. The former king refused to appoint a nanny to rear the bastard son who had killed his wife, so I was nursed on this seaweed soup, instead of breast milk. I wanted to call him father just once, but he... never allowed it.'

#the crowned clown #왕이 된 남자 #listen I'm SO normal about this scene you wouldn't believe #THE TEARS IN HAKSAN'S EYES WHEN HE REALLY MAKES UP HIS MIND ABOUT WHAT'S HE GOING TO DO #THE PAIN in his eyes because he loves the king so much and he can still see the person he once was in him but he knows he's so far gone #and he can't be fixed #yi heon's own pain and unhingedness and and AND #SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP #when he tries to take the spoon but he's too weak and shaky to do so and it falls down and he's so confused #and haksan gently puts it back into his hand I'm DEAD #I'm going to GNAW ON WOOD #the way yi heon sounds sad but normal one moment but gets completely unhindged in the next and the pain it causes haksan #I'm!!!!!!!!!!!! !! jdkskß !! #have I rewatched this scene a bit too many times? MAYBE #other fanart #it looks like tumblr ate the quality a bit I'm upset djdjdjkd #I had to redrew the screenshot of this because I'm just!!!