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dreamboyf · 7 years

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Hey I'm sorry about all the anon hate you've been getting! I swear this isn't hate I have a legit question but I'm really scared you'll hate me so I wanna stay on anon. I'm sorry if your having a bad night you can answer later but if I don't ask I won't get any sleep. (1/?) sorry this is long I hope I'm not too annoying 😞Ok.... you're probably tired of hearing about this but I've been in a lot of abusive situations and sometimes seeing fiction about it helps me cope.

(2/?) I just think about myself in those situations I have a habit of thinking I deserved it but when I see other characters I can empathize w/ them better than myself and know they don’t and in that way it kinda helps me realize if they don’t then I don’t you know? I kinda like things like killing stalking because sometimes I need that reminder that I didn’t deserve the things I went through (obviously not anything as bad as in that but still) I also have really bad destructive habits and

(3/?) seeing violent things helps me be less violent toward myself. Ik people are gonna be like well why can’t you heal like this and this such way but I’ve tried everything and this is what works for me personally. Also honestly I like hearing about serial killers and stuff. It just interests me. I do feel like the way they handled bpd was inappropriate and I don’t like people seriously shipping them or comparing it to YOI. I understand if it’s not your thing. That’s fine

(4/?) but am I really that bad of a person for liking it? People keep saying everyone that likes it is sick and it’s starting to tear me up. I guess I’m just asking if you think I’m gross for reading it? I really like you and don’t want you to think I’m gross but at the same time stuff like that helps me feel better? Also if I’m being a bad person I wanna know so I can fix it. Idk I wanna get better but I don’t want to be bad and it’s really stressing me out

(4/4) And just to clarify I don’t want you to feel bad for me or anything and you’re entitled to your opinion I just really need an answer. If I’m being bad please point it out but like… I’m kinda confused how I’m being toxic by liking something? I don’t even want them to get together, if anything I want Bum to escape or Woo to get caught. Idk maybe I’m overthinking this… I’m just really worried as coming off as a bad person

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I kinda. thought about how to answer this for a long while but I think I’ve kinda figured it out.

KS is obviously extremely problematic. It was written specifically to be fetishized and romanticized. It’s torture porn. It speaks ill of and targets gay men, people with BPD, and people with other mental illnesses. If it were written as a psychological horror story, and nothing more, it would be less problematic. However, it was very clearly written as if it were MEANT to be a “love story.”

If you use it as a coping mechanism, and you acknowledge that it’s problematic, can list reasons why it is and who it affects, and you don’t contribute to the extremely problematic fandom in any way (i.e., making art, writing fanfics, etc., which would contribute to the romanticization of KS) then I don’t see why you’re a bad person for liking it. Sometimes coping mechanisms aren’t fluffy bunnies and bubble baths and cookies. Sometimes coping is looking at violence and consuming material that aids in the healing process even though said material is problematic. I understand. I also read it, but I KNOW that it’s problematic and I never excuse the actions of the story or try and defend the writer’s decisions. You aren’t a bad person, especially seeing as how you aren’t the type of person to “ship” the two main characters or romanticize the abuse that is happening. You can read it, sure. Just make sure you aren’t actively hurting anyone else by romanticizing or making light of abuse.

#dont rb2313 #;answered

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