#also obviously edgar isn't me he's never been a self inseet

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thinks about 80s jack...

#i don't think i've ever explicitly said it other than very heavily implying it but the way 80s jack and edgar/sane jack and vincent interact #-is very much based off of my own experiences with abuse #i accidentally put a lot of my abuser into vince and 80s jack simultaneously (albeit a lot of important things were influenced by ben) #so it's very much been a story that's helped me process what's happened to me #there's things i'm shy about including or i leave blurred because i'm still not fully comfortable talking about the real life equivalent- #-of what happened to me #this is also partially why i'm so sensitive to people being inspired by the things i write even if i find it very flattering #i hope my attitude about that hasn't. discouraged anybody from being inspired #i just have a very complicated relationship with what i create #also obviously edgar isn't me he's never been a self inseet #*insert