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#and I do feel like I've made progress. I've made immense progress. the mood stabilizer alone is giving me loads of new data to process.
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#I think one of the reasons therapy is so hard is that it's not like I show up and talk about the problem I have.
#I show up and have to list all thirty seven problems and explain how their separate and how they're intertwined
#I had my third hour-long appointment with my therapist who I feel genuinely hopeful about and there's still issues I haven't talked about
#and I get that a lot of these separate issues are really just a basket of extreme symptoms from a few core issues
#but it's been so long that they've grown and rooted on their own so it's not just a matter of digging out the original roots. not anymore.
#and I do feel like I've made progress. I've made immense progress. the mood stabilizer alone is giving me loads of new data to process.
#without it the mood phase I'm in right now would be morose and gloomy with manic energy turned inward to self loathing.
#I started that direction a day or so ago because I forgot/didn't care to take my meds and started slipping
#but I took my pills and bam I leveled out. and that's nice. I feel calm and serene.
#hmm. I've been like this before though. after some sort of emotional high which I did have for a bit.
#idk. I'm hopeful I'm positive I'm optimistic but still
#I need to talk to my therapist about the feeling like a joke. I'm weird I'm interesting I'm novel I'm strange I know it already.
#I'm lonely
#I'm tired of being different. of being set apart. of being holy. divine.
#I want to be normal. not a spectacle to gawk at or even appreciate. I want to be unremarkable. I want to fit in.
#my therapist has enjoyed talking with me. I'm very funny. very charming. tough to keep up with apparently.
#those things are intended as compliments but they also just remind me of how alone I am. different. set apart.
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