#and also I'm trying to get help w/ the eepy disease (being eepy all the time)

[welcometogrouchland]

Okay I think I'm mature enough to admit. That I am getting withdrawal from the owl show. And that I miss her so bad it's not even funny anymore

#ramblings of a lunatic #GOD. GETTING THE SYNOPSIS FOR FTF REALLY SENT ME OVER THE EDGE AND NOW I'M REWATCHING SEASON 2 AGAIN #I JUST. IT'S SO GOOD AND I MISS IT AND I LOVE WHEN A NEW EP COMES OUT AND THE TAGS AND WHATNOT EXPLODE #AND IT'S SO CLOSE TO ENDING AND I'M EMOTIONAL ABOUT IT #I DON'T QUITE KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT FROM THE SHOW RN AND THAT MAKES ME SO SCARED BUT SO EAGER TO SEE THE NEXT EP #the episode is airing 21st of January and if i remember correctly we got the poster for TTT almost exactly a month before it aired #hence if we're following the same/similar schedule and promo style then it'll be just a couple days til something like that happens #and the fact that i KNOW it might happen so soon is what's fucking getting me. i know it's here soon and i need it now #I know I could just make my own stuff in the meantime! that's how being in fandom works #but i have Not been feeling good abt my art lately (well. less the art than the fact that I'm getting more self conscious of the response?- #-and i don't like that. i had a really good run of not caring what ppl thought about the things i post but that has been a struggle lately) #and also I'm trying to get help w/ the eepy disease (being eepy all the time) #so in other words things are hard rn in terms of fandom engagement for me #hence im sitting here like a rabid cannibal on an overpass waiting for travelers. but the travelers are disney promos #that's a very disturbing metaphor but you get my point