#and my throat feels all chokey and gross

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oh god i feel so much better after finally being able to puke Like fuck i had that pill stuck in my throat for FOUR HOURS and hell i dont even know if its still there and my throat is just too numb to tell anymore, aaAAAA i had to look thru the puke for signs of it and i couldnt find it but i didnt really look super thoroughly cos i’d have to TOUCH IT OR SOMETHING but there weren’t any noticeable hard lumps so i think if the pill is in there then it had like partially digested into a goopy glue and thats why it was still stuck in my damn throat for so long there’s this big weird brown glorp in the puke that makes me worried cos im like ‘WTF I HAVENT EATEN ANYTHING CHOCOLATE RELATED IN THE LAST FIVE DAYS’ so i think thats gotta be like.. whatever the antidepressants look like on the inside of their lil capsule things or maybe its a blood glob thats become discoloured from the stomach acid and stuff? my throat is so DEAD like seriously all my stomach acid was rising up all superhero style trying to destroy this damn blockage and THANK YOU because if i hadnt finally been able to vomit it might have been there forever or like burned a hole in my throat and i’d actually suffocate and/or choke to death on my own blood

ANYWAY IN CONCLUSION if your antidepressants are big ol large pills and you suck at swallowing pills even with water then do not be a stupid fuck in your half awake state and try and dry swallow it! what is wrong with me gahhhhh also like apparantly it does not work if you swallow the pill first and the water second, like you need the water at the same time to wash it down your throat and it will just get lodged there FOREVER and just GAHHHH and man i don’t even know if i swallowed it or if that brown glob was it, or if its still there and its just not as chokey anymore and like DAMN should i try and take a second pill then???

oh man lol and while writing that last sentence i threw up again and it was like.. entirely spit was there just a huge glob of spit stuck in there from all my attempts to swallow this damn pill

uuuuuugh so gross

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