#and now I've been sick & bedridden for a literal week and I still haven't done ANYTHING with it

[imwritesometimes]

in one week it will officially be one year since I finished a fic edited it & posted it hahaha 😵‍💫😖😞😑

#and like. it kills me that. I had this whole fckn idea for a 5+1 recently for one of my north star ships #and I got the notes all done and had the ideas and even dialogue snippets and could see the scenes #but I just. could never make myself get farther than the notes. ever. I couldn't ever get to actually writing it. at all. ever. #and now I've been sick & bedridden for a literal week and I still haven't done ANYTHING with it #before I would have worked on it! I would have worked non stop! I literally cannot be out of bed for longer than 15 minutes #I would have written another 10 chapter idiots to lovers with a whole intricate plot to weave a romance around #that no one asked for #but now #nothing. #to be fair to myself tho I have been so sick I couldn't even activate my new giga pet #I had to quit playing sims cause I got so sick I couldn't go to my desk. the show I was looking forward to debuted and I can't watch it #cause I'm just fuckin dead. wanted to get the new t0mb raider re-release but I'm so sick I couldn't play it #but it's killing me that I can't make myself write. it is like. why won't you do this? you LIKE this? this was once ur fave hobby! #and I'm just also very tired of being confined to bed for a week and I'm going a little nutty can you tell??? #erin explains it all