#and then i also don't reaally want to be left alone so like @ me what do u want

[indigodawns]

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#anyone else ever gets in those moods that sometimes last for days or weeks #where you just... have no space for anyone and it's like your empathy switch is off #i know these are things i shouldn't say maybe but it's so frustrating and it makes me so upset with myself #but truly everything just makes me angry these days #i say these days i mean past 2 years tbh but yk. and it's better irl sometimes bc then i can switch on #and sometimes i just need to push past the wave of irrational anger and then it's fine and im my normal self for a bit #but wtf??? like sometimes someone will text 'hey what's up' and my first reaction would be oh my god i can't believe you'd ask that #am i just??? drained all the time??? is that it??? #am i scared of other people's emotions??? i don't understand #and then i also don't reaally want to be left alone so like @ me what do u want #also i hope it's clear that this is a me issue and doesn't accurately reflect how i feel about the people in my life #and if you're reading this and we text it's easy peasy: i love you #and my fucking brain WILL get back on track or fine a funky new autism friendly track if need be #clearly i need to change something though bc this... no #and please know this isn't an @ like that's not how i roll 😭😭 #also that was a genuine question dhdhdhd like that's the purpose of these tags so feel free to gimme your pov if you want <3