#and then i stumbled onto instagram today and saw they'd had the party last week.

[catboydan]

it's time to abandon my current instagram and start one where i just follow dnp and that's literally it

#also maybe bts tho unsure #the problem is i only keep it around to see stories from the people i follow not anything from people i know #but then i see stuff that makes me unhappy or triggers the stupid fucking rejection sensitivity and i feel like shit for the rest of the da #but i can't unfollow my irls because that feels too rude + there's family on there too. #so making a second account and only ever actually using that one is the go-to i think. #val comes out of hiding #..... i wasn't invited to my friend's bachelorette party..... #i don't drink i don't party i would have gone anyway #i messaged our group chat from a few months ago when we got together for a game night asking if we wanted to do another one yesterday. #and then i stumbled onto instagram today and saw they'd had the party last week. #tw negativity #i just feel stupid. but i've kept myself at an arm's length so that's on me