#bc like hes my BUDDY hes my PAL i think he'd understand if im gone for like a day or two but 3 DAYS?? 6 DAYS???

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man as much as i wanna visit my gf sometimes my brain gets caught on every single thing that could go wrong or happen while im there. like i just start spiraling into thoughts like. what if the plane crashes on the way there. what if on our way driving 2 her house we get in a car wreck. or i get worried something bad is gonna happen back at home like oh what if mom gets hurt and dies and im not there. what if kitty gets sick or gets outside and gets lost. or even just basic shit like oh what if i embarrass myself while im there n do or say something stupid. LIKE ik none of those things will happen but lol my brain thinks otherwise. brain thinks every single one of these things are going to happen . all at once

#my biggest genuine concern is kitty and just leaving him at home with mom #like its not like she wouldnt take care of him she'll absolutely feed him n ik its not like she'll coincidentally forget to lock the door #or somethign n let him outside but idk. ig im moreso jus worried about him. mentally AKJSKJG #bc like hes my BUDDY hes my PAL i think he'd understand if im gone for like a day or two but 3 DAYS?? 6 DAYS??? #a whole WEEK?? a whole TWO WEEKS OR MORE??? #i dont want him to think im leaving him forever and i wish i could tell him that but alas he is a cat and does not speak human #but hrrhghr :((((( #if we do visit each other i really jus want her to come here. j. just because of kitty #but also idk im just thinkint about it and #i feel like me going there would be more . Fun for both of us. bc idk when it comes 2 comparing my mom to her mom #her mom seems mor willing to like take us out places 2 do stuff n to get us out of the house to spend time with each othr #but my mom . would be at work . 80% of the time with only 2 days off per week. n she works fuckin 10+ hours a day so ofc she #wouldnt want to get a day off n then take us out places when she prolly doesnt want to leave the house SDJKKJG... #plus i cant drive my gf cant drive walking somewhere isnt an option so if she DID come here we'd rly b stuck at home #and i mean ig thats okay but itd be nice to ........ go out. and leave the house for once KJJKDHHJG... #ig we'll just see what happenes ! ii just. hope it rly does happen. ill prolly cry if it does KSJDKJGLBGBHBJG