#being he/him'd doesn't make me dysphoric im just like 'yeah i guess that's an easy mistake to make. carry on'

[dreamlogic]

i keep trying to uninstall gender but society keeps forcing mandatory updates that won't let me completely remove the program from my device, so instead i have to settle for just going into settings and removing all permissions & silencing notifications regularly. wish there was an Opt Out button. this gender shit starting to feel like tumblr live & i just gotta keep snoozing it weekly for the rest of my life

#coming out to new coworkers and the results have been overwhelmingly more positive than my last job! #prev job just. ignored my pronouns & refused to acknowledge my transness at all #present job i got abt 50/50 'oh ok cool' & 'oh ok cool but this is v new to me so please be patient if i mess it up' #there's clearly some people who read me as a cis man and it's v hard for them to think of me as anything else #& i'm like bro i'm just a person with a body don't think too hard about it #anyways in this metaphor the computer keeps defaulting me to male as the closest approximation #and i just have to keep reminding it that my man-shaped camouflage is just a performance #there's no gender underneath it's just me #being he/him'd doesn't make me dysphoric im just like 'yeah i guess that's an easy mistake to make. carry on' #like i did spend 10+ yrs & thousands of $ to ensure when ppl inevitably gender me (as most can't help doing subconsciously) they lean masc #so it's not wrong per se #but it doesn't give me the euphoria/relief/comfort of just. not being gendered at all. #ctxt #meatsuit renno