#being raised the specific flavor of xian that I was. other people's bodies were taboo. so by extension.. mine was too

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#they were so right peroxide wash on your face is magical and great #tag talk #I feel three times cleaner than normal. which tbf might be because it's been a while since I real long shower but anyway #I feel like I always have to defend myself to my own mind when I buy skincare stuff but like.. we buy other toiletries and don't give a shit #skin is important. and topical skin infections can in fact happen #and like. idk. skincare can be important like nail care and hair care and anything else #just because taking care of your skin has been conflated with buying an entire rack of makeup and other beauty products. #anyway. I continue to learn how to take care of myself #also. once again. being a cna taught me so much about the human body and I've become so much more observant of my own body as a result #being raised the specific flavor of xian that I was. other people's bodies were taboo. so by extension.. mine was too #plus body dysphoria. as a result - massive dissociation. blindness to self. failure to learn about my own functions #I used to think I would use randomly gain weight. it wasn't until 23 yrs old I realized “nah babe that's the bloating that people talk about #I only realized that because a resident had similar stomach fuck up cycles to mine and I was like wait a fucking second... #also. idk. people freak out and think it's gross. but you can genuinely tell a lot by poop. I can tell stress levels. diet. sleep health.. #learn all sorts of stuff from paying attention to your body. and it's cool to reconnect with my own skin. learn to get along with myself