#bipolar lol i think ive got a point. but i go back and forth idk. it doesn't really matter. i just find it interesting

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#so theres this terrible thing i do where i force myself to get up way too early and go into the lab before anyone else #bc i get overwhelmed when lots of ppl r around. its terrible bc if u do that over and over it kinda breaks ur brain #but there is something i like abt walking around while its still dark out and on ones on thr roads looking up at the stars and theyre all #haloed here bc theres actually moisture in thr air here. i feel. idk how i feel. more normal i guess. like neutral but in a negative way. #like i dont really care about anything. probably im just tired. i haven't been sleeping well. maybe its the birth control #which im still taking bc im too curious abt how my mood fluctuates when my hormones r controlled. or maybe its my mood. but ive been tired #and ive not been having fun. i just feel like im very no thoughts empty head. here's info do u have anything to say abt it? any observations #? no. no. cant read cant think cant talk in a way that makes may sense. what do we do abt it? i dunno. i dunno. #sleep maybe. stop taking the birth control maybe. talk to my councilor monday definitely. give her an insane rant abt how im definitely not #bipolar lol i think ive got a point. but i go back and forth idk. it doesn't really matter. i just find it interesting #sigh. remember when i had time to draw? remember when i wanted to draw? now im just tired #whatever. ill sleep and feel better. get my executives to function maybe. maybe. but probably not #i did cut off like 3 inches of hair on impulse. got that chin length depression haircut. classic #unrelated