#bsd yt tiktok whatever they don't GET IT

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

god its 1am i cannot be doing this

#bsd yt tiktok whatever they don't GET IT #its not sad because his friend died and then hopeful because he told him to do good its fuckin #imagine your life lowkey going to shit and you lose one friend and then your other friend of 3 years knowingly marches to his death and you #cant convince him otherwise but you go to him anyway and he's dying youre watching him die #the anime doesn't do much well but dazais hand shaking covered in blood is a Visual you dont get it #dazai trying to be like we will save you just fucking gets me #think abt the aftermath #“Dropping onto his knees by Odasaku’s side‚ Dazai looked up to the ceiling and closed his eyes. His tightly shut lips faintly trembled.” #think abt that #and the way the stageplay turns that into full on crying #he is literally 18 his lifes like partly collapsed he just held his friend until he died #and when he leaves this room hes going to uproot himself entirely #this isnt coherent in any way but it hurts me #it hurts me so much #odas death doesnt hurt because its odas DEATH it hurts because its ODAS DEATH #also im thinking abt how in the anime dazais coat fell off when he ran to oda #he burned that #he had to pick it up and leave #do you ever think about that #he had to pick it up and walk away