#but he was an abusive vile man and deserved to suffer and I'm glad he's finally dead

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I have a problem with worth the fight I have been severely abused physically, mentally and sexually and still am being abused so I would rather not see such graphic detail and I wont be reading it, however if I happen to come across it on my dashboard I will be reporting it to have it removed as I dont feel it's a place for it, I'm sorry but you asked for honestly, I do love all your other stories but cant get onboard with this one, I'm truly sorry love

Triggering answer ahead so don’t read it if you are easily triggered.

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You are right, I did ask for honesty and I’m thankful for It.

But here is a little bit of my honesty.

I have also suffered from severe mental, physical and sexual abuse from not only one but two men.

The first man to abuse me in every sense of the word is someone that I should have been able to go to when I felt unsafe and scared.

This man should have been my protector and should have been my hero but by doing all that he did, he has lost the privilege of being in my life.

He has brainwashed my two younger sisters to the point where we don’t even talk or see each other. I have lost out on everything to do with my sisters because of this monster.

I have no desire to talk to him, see him or even have the same last name as him.

This man was my father.

He has done the most vile things to me and it honestly breaks my heart to think that he could treat his own daughters the way he did and does.

The abuse from him was so bad that at the age of 9 years old, I thought it would be better to kill myself.

I tried to find something to end my life with, but no matter how hard I searched, I couldn’t find anything.

To this day, I’m glad I didn’t kill myself.

Yes, the abuse only escalated from there and as I started to develop, I began to get inappropriately touched and backed into corners at the church I would go to when I had to see my father.

This was at the hand of an older teenage boy who, for some reason found me as the perfect target.

Of course when all of this happened, no one was around to see it and because I was made to feel like this was my fault and that I deserved it, I didn’t say anything until recently.

So while I did ask for honesty, I too have been through shit. What have told you about my past, honey it barely scratches the surface.

My main goal was to have all my experiences added to the story as a way for me to cope with all that continues to go through my head.

I still struggle to come to terms with what’s happened and truthfully, I still have thoughts of ending it all. I still feel worthless at times.

The hard truth is that all the trauma never goes away. You will be left with scars and you will still have triggers.

So do what you have to, but just know that by reporting the story, you are essentially reporting my story.

Please dm me so we can talk about this.