#but honestly i did suffer some disordered eating/body image issues in hs & i'm sure my relationship with food isn't completely healed

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#i don't mean to vent when i just got back on here but like #so i haven't had a midnight snack in months--just didn't feel the need-- #but the night before last & last night i got a sleeve of saltines each--these were short sleeves of like 10-15 #i got the box for my dad when he was sick because he asked me & it had been sitting there for maybe 3 months since & no one wanted them #but then tonight we had soup & my parents asked about the saltines & basically found out #& my dad kinda chewed me out--not about eating the last of them because there was another box they used-- #but that that was way too much to eat & i eat too much & will get diabetes #which i feel just isn't true ? #without divulging too much i eat two meals a day (i don't like breakfast)--like a sandwich at lunch & then whatever me and/or my mom-- #makes at dinner #maybe a snack in between but not often #& then some (like a serving size) of ice cream for dessert #like a get a lot of cravings but it's not often i act on it because food is expensive #anyways i felt so bad about what my dad was saying i started crying & he said i was being overdramatic. but i didn't finish my dinner #& now i don't even want to eat around him #i should probably just ignore him--i love him but he's one of those dads that gets so involved at work that he just wants to watch tv when-- #he's off. & he thinks i'm basically the same person i was when i was eight years old--like i love mac n cheese & my favorite color is orange #but honestly i did suffer some disordered eating/body image issues in hs & i'm sure my relationship with food isn't completely healed #but it still hurts to see people think things about me that aren't that accurate #tw vent #tw disordered eating #rose.txt #To be deleted