#but today especially made me go 'yeah maybe i have autism' cuz. ugh this is embarassing.

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I like. Neeeed to be checked out for autism, lol

#rae rants #i scored 113 on the like. The autism test the one with 95% accuracy that one. #but also like. it makes the most sense. #i mean its at the very least more understandable that having 4 comorbidities that just so happen to resemble autism when together. #but today especially made me go 'yeah maybe i have autism' cuz. ugh this is embarassing. #i got upset to the point of crying just cuz my family got me takeout that is almost entirely onions. which is a texture i cant stand. #cooked- raw- it doesnt matter. even seeing that many at once made me lose my appetite. just cuz of the texture i know it has. #i mean im also gonna be seen as ungrateful but. like. sorry: im not eating onions. wtf do they expect me to do. #but also. idt i could get enuff benefits for getting labelled as autistic for it to be worthwhile to seek out a diagnosis. #in fact. it could potentially ruin my career path cuz i wanna be a teacher and those checks can be extensive. so its like. #not to self diagnose but. whats the alternative solution that doesnt immediately put stigma on you. quickly. #... for reference i love the taste of onions. its just the texture.