#but. yeah. 'grey stop overthinking about quiz results' challenge: impossible

[byanyan]

Which Imaginary Illness Do You Have?

storm syndrome

ㅤyou never really knew how to be yourself, distancing yourself from your own existence - standing outside of the house even as the storm closed in. you are going through the motions of everyday life, uncaring except for the toughest storms. each one feels like the one - the one that will finally be too much for you. somehow it isn't - it never is (except the last one). and as the people around you pick their lives back up and move on, barely bothered by the storm, you still carry it in you - one foot in your life and one out of it. and when they'll ask about you, asking questions about your future, your plans, your dreams, the only honest answer would be "i don't know, i never thought i'd make it this far".

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#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ dash meme. #oh my gOD... what the fuckajkfsd #this one hits HARD holy shitttt #the way byan knows very well who they are but at the same time... they don't #they never really got to figure out who they were before awful and lifechanging events started shaping them into who they are now #who would they be if they got to grow up normally? if they'd had a more average and less traumatic childhood? #'you still carry it in you' is so REAL. they haven't been able to let go of a damn thing that's happened to them #and it completely impacts the way they approach life and people #they're ANGRY and they hold on to that anger because it's all they fucking have. it's the only thing that's kept them going for so long. #'i don't know i never thought i'd make it this far' just fuck me riGHT UP JFC #yeah. yeah. that's exactly it. they never really planned for the future bc they were sure there wasn't going to be one. #but here they are. and now they're expected to know what they want to do with their life like their entire life up until now #hasn't simply been about survival. #.....fortunately they have some help and guidance now in figuring out what they want and how they can get it #but. yeah. 'grey stop overthinking about quiz results' challenge: impossible