#esp since this very great grandmother thought we didn't talk to our bus driver bc she thought we were scared of him

[laylanatorseventeen]

Well my great grandmother died the day before yesterday and while I'm not, like, happy about it, I didn't know her so I'm not like sad either. But I'm going to the visitation and funeral because I'm expected to and I will be there for my dad, who actually did know and care about her. I only hope we don't have a repeat of what happened when my great uncle died, i.e, me gazing emotionlessly at the corpse of a person I neither knew nor particularly cared about whilst my aunt melodramaticly urges me to "let go" of the grief under which she mistakenly believes I am laboring

#like there is no tactful way to say 'i dont care that this person is dead' especially AT THEIR FUNERAL SURROUNDED BY THEIR LOVED ONES #so i just stayed quiet. which is what I'll do if it happens this time but i will find it very annoying #like yes you could argue that the reason i did not know her is because i did not make a particular effort #but as a queer democrat in the south excuse me if i don't feel like chumming with baby boomers #esp since this very great grandmother thought we didn't talk to our bus driver bc she thought we were scared of him #bc he was black and she speculated we may never have seen a 'colored' bus driver before #like rachel you need to get out of the house more its not 1965 anymore????? we've seen black people #like i dont even like my immediate family anymore bc theyre all bigots of course i am not eager to delve into the mindset of THEIR parents #but of course my aunt and grandparents do not know i am a queer democrat #they mistakenly believe that i share their 'ideals' #so basically this funeral will just be awkward.