#especially the bathroom bc the shower wasn't finished and we've been too broke to fix it at all

[femmeboyhooters]

Why does life ALWAYS have to be shit

#summer was fine except for everything that started breaking in here #this winter has been fucking dark #and i wanna fucking die #crying tonight because my skin fucking burns and rashes every time i wash my face at night bc everything in the bathroom is moldy #like everything is black and or gray #i barely even shower because it smells so bad in there #it wasn't supposed to do this and we have the theory this place was moldy when we bought it #especially the bathroom bc the shower wasn't finished and we've been too broke to fix it at all #the mattress has black mold everywhere even on the outside of a sealed mattress protector with an antimicrobial coating #my hormones and health have been fucked up since November #weather wise this is one of the coldest and wettest winter in this area in like 40+ years #the last three days i have had to stay up all night to make sure the water doesnt shut off freeze in the pipes or flood managing that 24/7 #bc on valentines day it dumped more snow than an average winter should have here in 24 hours and then dropped below freezing #i got my psoriasis and eczema back #i have thrush now #i can't breathe most the time bc my throat has been reacting like anaphylaxis and my airways start to close #oh and on top of that my husband just hasn't been working for a month bc there's no work at his job so we have all of 0.54 cents in account #we gotta pay rent in a week hopefully we don't get kicked out og where we're parking #and bc of the work stuff we can't move for a few months till we can get enough saved to do that and so im stuck here #i live in abject squalor #oh also did i mention everything i own has to fit into two cupboards now due to the mold ruining all our shit #and all the cupboards but two are rotted out #and the floor in our room is peeling up and breaking off bc of the mold #we both are having an incredibly hard time mentally #my txt