#even /nine/ he loses 'i want this person hurt' animosity toward after florida. in fact animosity at all that we see after that initial

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

year six of being salty that around halfway through RoS the writers went 'shit we accidentally wrote five way too sympathetic and reasonable, and he is rapidly going through a redemption arc. quick shove in random serial killer shit out of nowhere without explanation, which completely contradicts his character and its development up til then. wait fuck he's redemption arcing EVEN HARDER in FoT. shit shit shit okay just make him hannibal lecter'

#lorien legacies #LL number five #LL crit tag #the crit files #five hurting people is something he consistently has to work himself up toward by turning them into an Object of Hatred #and/or having someone else encourage him to do so #because hurting people /fucks him up/ even when he hates them #and after that has hit its breaking point of emotional intensity he just. stops wanting to hurt them #wants to help them or at least for them to be alright in fact; even when they've treated him horrifically #and when that breaking point results in doing irreversible harm he regrets it SO MUCH #he has to spend a month dissociating and keeping himself busy every waking hour not to break the fuck down over what he did to ethan #and he DOES break the fuck down over killing eight #like even if he thought well of eight in particular by comparison he's been stoked up to hate the other garde in general #which leads pretty quickly to regret and total lack of malice toward the garde after the showdown in florida #he is completely broken over it #even /nine/ he loses 'i want this person hurt' animosity toward after florida. in fact animosity at all that we see after that initial #monologue over eight's body; where he's having his big moment of realizing he has more hatesinking to regret than just hurting eight #and he doesn't say he wants nine to suffer. he just says it wasn't worth helping him because he thinks he'd just throw it away #the only time we see him kill someone and not seem too fucked up about it is when it's a mog soldier who presumably knew what he was #signing up for; and was literally swinging a sword at five's head #five fucks me up because at heart he just does not have real malice in him. if he is feeling it something has gone terribly wrong #not as in ~lol of course it has he's crazy~ but as in 'if you supposedly feel fine but are under so much stress that you're having constant #shakes and heart palpitations that is not your default state of being; you are being bent in half and you're eating yourself' #so them randomly going uhmmm ACTUALLY he's a BLOODTHIRSTY SADISTIC SERIAL KILLER who carves his number into a rando's chest #for no reason; and lets people regenerate rather than kill them so he can savor hacking them apart over and over; and drools over murdering #as many people as he can including two random mog guards that happened to be in him and ella's way is like. fuck off lmao #even if you try to go with him turning the mogs into a hatesink for what they've done he would go into a breakdown spiral as soon as it #resulted in killing someone and actually seeing them suffer. the other exception to this that we see before the character assassination #started was deltoch but i do feel like there's an explanation there; it doesn't feel Jarring; but will have to think about it #anyway five has some great moments in UaO but it's really frustrating trying to pick through the bullshit for Actual Characterization