#every time i read the tales in lodestone this thought always surfaces. reading 'a question of life' n. feels bittersweetly personal bcs

[noxtivagus]

ffxiv really influenced my writing huh

#🌙.rambles #[ ffxiv. ] #every time i read the tales in lodestone this thought always surfaces. reading 'a question of life' n. feels bittersweetly personal bcs #reading about hermes with a writing style that. feels similar to my own as well 😭😭 'but this time—this time i am surely beyond acceptance' #hdfkasjdlf thinking abt other stuff in the story too n. how could i not. think of him so much when. we're so similar in a way #you see i love alphinaud yes he's very precious too me. i find him very adorable and endearing #his youth and boyishness along with his certain sense of authority and maturity is something i love so much #as an older twin too myself he's. incredibly special to me & his development means the world to me #emet-selch is so bittersweet for me. remembrance.. love. especially with azem there's a reason why they're my favorite ship #the romance about it all. the poetry. he's a slave to sentiment; so am i. other than being so very important to me in regards to #story-telling he's also just. dramatic. silly. lonely. tragic really. oh and he smiles so stupidly it's just so lovely #aymeric is charming. when it comes to the wol.. he has all this authority but then with the wol he's just so sweet #a good person. he's rather quite obviously enamored with the wol in a way and it's really just so endearing. & he's uh. very pretty #hauchefant is so. oh he's really very knightly. he's very noble and selfless. romantic. his uh.. suggestive comments in jpn #are very funny ngl he's just a silly lil guy. and very supportive. beautiful smile too but that's a bit funny to say with msq stuff #I ENDED UP RAMBLING ABOUT THEM.. hdkfjasdl ok finally when it comes to hermes though #you see all my favorites in ffxiv are incredibly special to me in these unique ways #hermes is too. it's hard to describe but we're so similar in a way different from alphinaud and emet-selch #now that i've actually gone to writing this part i'm not sure what to say. it's nearly 6 am. he is. uh #he's sad. he opens up to the wol. he's. really kind and gentle and good at heart. i think when it comes to personality we're the most alike #& that certain sense of familiarity and similarity which goes along with understanding means the most to me. out of all these characters #if they were real then definitely i think i'd get along with hermes the most. he's emotional; different compared to his peers n #very intelligent & curious & accepting. he loves life. compassionate. oh my god flowers n birds n star related stuff he genuinely reminds #me so much of. like my own oc YEAH artem >< part of his name used to be caelum (heaven i think in latin) n corvus (latin for crow iirc) #oh man i genuinely think he contributed a lot in making me like blue a lot more. & then he's rlly just so mellow melancholic n then #stuff w hope despair. i like these characters so much bcs wtf i really want to help them in some way idk bcs i relate???? #it makes me so sad how in the end he didn't get the answers he was seeking. for reasons that are uh spoilers #ohh i realize a lot of characters i like. they're not quite misunderstood in the way apollo oft ends up being drawn to but #hmm. i could write about that but maybe leaving that to interpretation based on how it relates to me is much more interesting to do #oh my god it is 6 am i'm not proofreading all this or wtvr goodnight