#excuse me while I look up alkyl nitrites now. hmm. I miss chemistry. once I'm mentally stable I wanna go back and finish my degree.

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#tag talk #storytime sexcapades #I love when people like my tag rambles. like.. bestie which part did you vibe with? which of the thirty seven topics spoke to you? #they love me for my rampant adhd and low verbal filter #where's that post that's like “enjoyed by well over five people worldwide” #anyway. adhd. I don't care if I'm balls deep if I notice your tattoo I'm absolutely going to stop and compliment it and ask about it #thoughts wait for no one. I am absolutely putting everything on hold if I think of a funny joke. sex is literally not that important. #oh shit I remember what I forgot to look up last night. I pulled out my phone for something but I forgot what it was until just now. #looking up what chemicals are actually in poppers. how tf do they work and why do they smell like paint thinner (probably organic solvent) #excuse me while I look up alkyl nitrites now. hmm. I miss chemistry. once I'm mentally stable I wanna go back and finish my degree. #OH IT'S THE ALDEHYDES. THAT'S WHAT YOU SMELL. (aldehydes are a functional group. think like formaldehyde and acetaldehyde) #cause that's one of the decomposition products when it vaporizes at room temperature. that's why it smells like paint thinner. #huh. amyl nitrite is used as an antidote to cyanide poisoning. neat. #anyway. apparently people use it to relax the sphincter muscles. which. eh. I presume it works if people keep doing it? seems weird to me #can't you just learn muscle control? like. face muscles. arm muscles. stomach and back muscles. why not sphincter muscles. idk. #substance use is unlikely when you're just dead set on doing everything yourself and being independent of anything. #like. I have a hard time taking my antidepressants. if I can't even medicate properly what makes you think I'm gonna medicate illicitly. #alcohol doesn't count. that's an acute effect strictly for when I want to sit still for two hours for a movie. that's different. #bye I'm going for a walk it's cloudy and slightly stormy outside